final tears for 2011

assalamualaikum. to all.

entry hanya bertajuk.
tanpa isi.
sy tak mampu berkata.
hanya ini yang saya mampu.
air mata ni memang disimpan untuk mengakhiri tahun 2011.
sy cuba untuk senyum sekarang.
tapi tak boleh.
senyuman ini untuk tahun baru 2012.
tapi azam sy telah pun bermula sejak 1 muharram.
............................
tanpa kata. air mata jadi saksi.

p/s: i'll let u drop till the last teardrop. but, i'll keep all the teardrops to wake me up from a fairy's dream.

vacation-CAMERON HIGHLANDS

assalamualaikum.. to all..

okay, let make it a simple entry.

• 1st time vacation at CH. *first and last perhaps.
• off to CH from 16 till 18 of DEC. w my sisters' family. 2 cars. 
• stayed at LILY APARTMENT at Tanah Rata. *very satisfied with the apartment. comfortable and affordable.
• weather: sangat sejuk and tak expect sesejuk itu.. maybe musim hujan. last day baru nampak matahari and tak perlu nak pakai baju berlapis2.
• 1st day- we just stayed at the apartment except for dinner bcoz cuaca sangat sejuk and belum terbiasa dengan keadaan tu. so, we chose to stay at home.
• 2nd day- after breakfast, we moved on to ladang teh at Cameron Valley Tea House. melawat ladang teh.. then, moved on to ladang strawberry. forgot its name. konon nya nak petik strawberry tapi belum musim pulak.. so just beli in packet.. melantak sampai lebam.. hahaha.. next, we all singgah kat kedai souvenirs.. tapi tak beli pape pun..amek gambar adelah.. sebab ada mini garden untuk lepak2 and ber'posing'..lupa pulak, before naik kereta i bought a tray of tomatoes . sangat sedap and crunchy..next, lunch hour..makan tempat biasa sebab tempat tu je nampak macam kena dengan anak tekak we all. before balik apartment, we all singgah kejap kat pasar tepi2 jalan tu.. beli jagung.. bajet nak rebus for minum petang... then, balik apartment and lepaks bersama both sisters. yang lain semua melantak tido. just like kat KL tak cukup masa nak tido.. hahaha..
• 3rd day-packing segala barang2 yang ada and we all gerak untuk breakfast then barulah pergi destinasi2 yang sepatutnya. disebabkan ni last day, so we all just pergi tempat2 for souvenirs. beli shirts for our parents and others. and i bought two strawberry LARGE and small for myself and Caca for her birthday present and of course i bought a few key chain for my collection.
• on the way back to KL-jalan sangat jam.. kalau tengok dari sisi atas kereta2 sepanjang jalan tu ibarat ular kena palu.. panjang giler. mestilah jam coz weekend and orang semua berebut2 nak turun. at first we all ikut jalan simpang pulai, jalan yang sama we all lalu masa datang. tapi disebabkan macam malas nak ikut jalan tu, we all turn back ikut jalan batu 14. okay, jalan tu sangat menggerunkan.. seriously, we all jerit dalam kereta. and honestly, it was the first time i wore seat belt. jalan bengkang bengkok boleh nampak curam and jalan tanah runtuh. okay, sangat mencabar. serious tak nak lalu kat situ lagi..

alright, that's all what i can say. even there's a lot of experiences. but then, this is the conclusion of all. let's take look on a few picture of ours..

that's all.. till then..night world.

baru sekarang terpikir..

assalamualaikum... to all

pernah tak u all terpikir kenapa ur mom suruh buat kerja2 rumah such basuh pinggan, basuh baju, kemas tempat tidur, sapu lantai, lipat baju and etc..? even u all masa tu kecik lagi and rasa macam tak patut je buat semua kerja2 tu time kecik.. patutnya time tu korang main 'pondok2', 'kawen2', 'cikgu2' and etc, bukannya dok susah2 buat semua housework tu .. and konfem sambil buat kerja2 tu mulut ni muncung sedepa sebijik macam mulut itik then merungut macam2...hahaha..pernah tak??? YES, I AM one of someone who wasn't satisfy when my mom or my sister told to do so..setiap kali diorang suruh buat kerja2 tu konfem dalam hati cakap TAKNAKKKKK...tapi mulut cakap YE and kepala MENGANGGUK..hellloooo..i'm too young to do those housework okay...

but then, time changed everything. and i am growing up and now i can think and found the reason of WHY....last week, my sist and i had a little discussion on why my mom told us to do everything by our selves. the only reason we found was:

• She wants us to learn how to manage everything by ourselves especially on HOUSEWORK because we are woman who will be a wife and a 'home maker'.

after the small discussion, we realized why she did that to us. now, i understand why she doesn't pamper me. and i am really appreciate on whatever she did to me because now i know how to do the housework accept cooking because this is not my 'expertise' yet. insyallah.. one day, i'll be one of the 'master' in cooking..hahaha..one day doesn't mean now.. sorry mom, i'm not so into cooking yet..

so, guys, how bout you? do you feel the same?...as for me, there must be a reason why our mom did every single to us. they want the best for us, that's why she teaches us how to manage those things even indirectly. sometimes we do not realize it. but, there are reasons of WHY....

that's all guys..

i LOVE my MOM so MUCH....

p/s: berbaktilah kepada kedua orang tua selagi mereka ada bersama kita.....

assalamualaikum. to all. simple entry but full of messages. 


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Jangan kita malas dan mengalah….ini mungkin menjadi setitik amal jariah yang bakal terhimpun menjadi telaga di akhirat nanti…

setelah sekian lama...

assalamualaikum. to all.

entry kedua untuk malam ni..btw, dah pagi dah. tapi mata ni still tak boleh nak lelap. kenapa? tu kena tanya pada en.mata.. hahaha.. sila baca title entry ni sebelum baca entry ni ye. kalau rasa title tu annoying, sila click cancel. tak perlu baca okay.

okay, straight to the point. setelah sekian lama rasa macam simpan anda, so saya dengan ini melepaskan anda dengan rela hati sebab dah tak tahu nak buat macam mana supaya hati ni kata YA. dah cuba macam2 cara. at least try. tapi still tak boleh. hati ni dah jadi batu kot. mungkin sebab dah lama masuk refrigerator. tapi one day, insyallah cair bila tiba masanya. nak suruh tunggu pun takut buang masa anda je. so, it's better cari bunga lain. mungkin juga anda dah ada bunga lain. hahaha..oppss.. terserkap jarang pulak. mungkin itu realiti.

really sorry coz let you waste your time for 'waiting' for something unsure. i can't force myself.. sorry once again. i wish for your happiness.. whatever it is.. we're still friend right. so, friend will never end.

rasa annoying tak dengan entry ni? sorry for being annoyed. bukan nak perasan hot or else. tapi, just wanna let somebody know that i'm sorry, really sorry and i appreciated him very well.

u, sorry ya. i tried my best. but, i cant. maybe memang dah prinsip i tak boleh nak kata YA. at least i try kan. anyway, thanks a lot coz being so good to me. it's not easy to someone like you. maybe you deserve someone better. we're not just meant to be together. *oppss..i terpoyo pulak.. whatever it is, we're still friend kan3?......

p/s: lelaki semua sama. :) peace.

alhamdulillah...anugerah allah

assalamualaikum.. to all

alhamdulillah. terima kasih ya allah. aku bersyukur dengan rezeki, nikmat serta anugerah yang kau kurniakan.

result exam keluar hari ni. bangun2 'pagi'* pagi sy pukul 11a.m je dapat mesej dari 'keroncong untuk ana'. dia inform bout result exam dah keluar. so, boleh check kat website ipg tercinta. daripada ngantuk2 kalau orang hulur bantal konfem sambung tido terus segar macam kena simbah dengan air. hahaha...exegerate je lebih.. bangun2 duduk kejap kat atas katil pastu termenung....tangan dah gigil ni...takutnya nak check result.. macam mana ni.. sampaikan my sist cakap biar dia check pastu dia bagitau after we all balik holiday. hahaaha..okay.. slow gi amek miss lappy kat atas meja pastu on...jantung dah dup dap dup dap.. tangan menggigil nak key in password.. jeng3..

ALHAMDULILLAH. aku lulus...macam mimpi je. pejam celik pejam celik mata sebab tak percaya..tapi tak tau la pointer berapa. syukur sangat2 sebab lulus. masa jawap exam hari tu macam tak konfiden je boleh lulus especially subject ES. sebab soalan tu tersangatlah killer. alhamdulillah. rezeki dari allah. okay penat lelah 3 semester terjawap sudah. so, esok boleh berholiday dengan gembira.

thanks to all for praying the best for me.

with lots of love, thank you very much.

p/s: kadangkala kebahagiaan itu merupakan satu ujian dari allah.

ceritera gelak guling2..

assalamualaikum..to all


this entry is specially post for miss diela. she wrote a story for me. story ape? jom baca. sia sedia untuk gelak guling3. tapi sediakan tisu sekotak sebab story ni 'sedih' okay..hahaha

Berakhirnya sebuah cerita

sekali lagi tgn menari...teringat kembali...gelak tawa bersama rakan...Ini khas buat Nur Nabilah ismail..lantas ku titipkan doa semoga anda sentiasa sihat di samping keluarga...<3 sy rindu kalian semua di IPG..<3

ila memandang sepi kubur yang masih merah itu.ternyata pengenalannya bersama johan selama 5 tahun itu terlalu sekejap baginya.ia Ila sedih dan pemergian Johan buat hatinya parah bersama rindu yang sarat. Sungguh mengunung rindunya pada Johan. Usai membaca Yaasin.Ila melipat tikar lalu beransur pulang. Myvi merah dipandu Ila membelah dada jalan. Tiada arah tuju. Fikirannya melayang.

"ouh! kenapa boleh hujan lagi ni. Jauh pulak tu aku nak berlari ke bus stop sana. "

sambil mengomel dan mengeluh panjang Nabilah atau lebih mesra dipanggil nabilah ini berlari anak menuju ke perhentian bas yang berdekatan. akhirnya dalam kekalutan membolos kan diri dalam kalangan anak anak kecil yang juga berteduh di perhentian bas itu menyebabkan gadis kecil molek ini cukup sesak.

"mana teksi ni. dah basah-basah baju aku dibuatnya.payung pun tak bawak dengan kertas periksa students lg.ish" mengeluh dan terus mengeluh smpai beg yang di pegangnya terjatuh

hujan masih renya renyai...anak anak kecik di perhentian itu pula sudah beransur ansur pulang menaiki bas sekolah untuk pulang ke rumah. Jam menunjukkan 3 petang. Hmapir sejam di perhentian bas.

"dushhh" buku serta kertas periksa di dalam beg ila jatuh bertaburan di jalan. di kejauhan samar-samar kelihatan kereta honda accord warna hijau kehitam-hitamna sednag membelah dada jalan menuju ke arah ila.nasib ila baik kerana kereta yang di pandu laju itu berhenti betul-betul di hadapan nya. pemandu nya keluar dengan wajah berang.

'hoi kalu ye pun nak tanda kertas budak tak boleh tnda kat rumah ke?yang kau sibuk-sibuk tanda tepi jalan ni kenapa?' jerkah pemuda yang segak bergaya mengenakan kemeja hijam dan tali leher ungu.

'maaf. kertas ni yang terbang bukan saya yang sibuk nak tanda.encik ni pun tak ada akal ke?masakan saya nak tanda kertas atas jalan.orang dekat hospital gila pun tahu benda tu mustahil.beg saya jatuh then kertas terbang.faham?so sekarang saya nak terima kasih sebab tak langgar saya tapi tolong agkat kai encik tu sikit.ade kertas saya.' balas ila lembut namun ada nada sindir di situ

"ermm maaf.saya tak perasan.btw saya johan." balas johan lembut smabil tangan nya ringan membantu mengutip kertas yang bertaburan.nasib hujan sudah berhenti dan tiada kertas yang basah.

"saya nabilah, nur nabilah ismail.people call me ila.just ila.thanks sebab tolong kutipkan." sambil menghadiahkan Johan suatu senyuman manis.

"ila. btw you got a nice name.sesuai dengan orngnya. ni tgh tunggu teksi ke?saya rasa teksi dah tak da waktu waktu macm ni..biar saya hantar awk pulang itu pun kalau awk tak keberatan" Johan mempelawa ila.

"erm.tak sushkan awk?lagipun saya br je knal awk kan?"

"tak pe jum naik kereta.tp awk dudk mana?"

"merlimau.tahu ke? dekat serkam sana"

"kebetulan saya ade hal dekat sana.politeknik merlimau.kita satu arah mmg elok je kalau saya tumpangkan awk"

hari demi hari ila dan johan makin rapat. tidak di nafkan muncul suatu perasaan yang sukar untuk di luah atau di ucap dengan kata-kata. Setiap hari pasti ada rindu yang bertandang di hati walaupun sudah menjadi kewajipan Johan menghantar Ila balik ke rumah. Johan rapat dengan keluarga ila. Pak cik Ismail dengan Mak cik Zaleha menerima Johan seadanya. Johan tak pernah seklai kenalkan ila dengan keluarganya namun jauh sekali hendak di ceritakan peribadinya. cukup lah ila tahu johan seorang engineer yang menguruskan sebuah syarikat atas nama latiflinda.corp.snd.bhd. sampai ke hari ini hubungan diorng sudah mencecah 5 tahun. namun Johan masih tidak pasti adakah itu waktu ynag sesuai untuk dia perkenalkan ila pada keluarganya. pasti ada sebab mengapa. Ada juga keluarga ila bertanyakan soal mereka, bukan apa.tidak manis rasanya berangkut anak dara orang namun hanya keluhan berat Johan tinggalkan sebagai jawapan.

satu hari Johan katakan pada ila hubungan mereka tak dapat diteruskan kerana dia kan di jodohka dengan orang lain.

Johan: Ila, abang mintak maaf tapi abang kena ikut ckp parents abang.dia adalh segalanya pada saya
Ila: ya ila sedar bang sapa ila.ila redha.jodoh ni ketentuan Allah bang.ila redha.\
Johan: maafkan abang ila.
Ila: takpa.ila Bahagia dengan abang
Johan: abang sentiasa sayang Ila.rindu Ila
Ila: Abang jangan bagi ila Hrapan lagi bang.cukupla.-

ila berlari sambil menyeka air matanya. ya itulah kali terakhir ila jumpa Johan..

seminggu selepas itu.Ila terima berita Johan sudah tiada lagi. Johan tinggalkan sepucuk surat buat Ila


ila.kalau ila baca surat ni mungkin abang dah tiada.maafkan abang sebab rahsiakan semua ni dari Ila.tapi abang tak nak ila sedih.abang nak ila ambil senyuman di bibir ila.senyuman tu yang buat abang jatu hati pada ila.ye abang dijodohkan dengan maut ila.ila. abang ada Leukimia.dah lama abag tunggu penderma namun tak da satu pun sesuai dengan abang.maafkan abang lagi Ila sebab rahsiakan dari Ila. Terima kasih sentiasa ada di sisi abang. Abang gembira. Abang sayang ila selamanya.

Nota kaki:okay ni memang feveret aku.btw hidup tu kadang kadang x seindah yang kita fikir kan?banyak yang sedih dari sukanya.erm..so since dari sekolah aku memg ade masalah mental kot sebab ending essay ak..watak kena mati.wajib.huhu..abaikan..thanks bellon bagi pinjam nama..jangan risau...kau akan dapat sumone yang akan sayang kau selamanya...<3 doa aku bersama kau bello <3

dah abes baca? korang gelak sampai guling2 tak? belum abes baca story lagi aku dah gelak guling2. rasa nak terburai isi perut. hahaha..exegerate lebih. tapi...tiba2 je rasa nak nangis. sebab macam sedih story ni. tapi yang buat aku rasa nak nangis bila baca notakaki dia. :(

to my lovely fren(miss diela): anda sangat hebat bila menulis story yang crapping tapi menarik.. u're welcome pinjam nama aku. btw, story line story ni macam bersangkut-paut je dengan story line cerita sebenar..hahaha.. and one more thing babe, aku pun doakan kau jugak akan dapat someone yang sayang kau forever. love you<3

p/s: saya dah lupakan anda. tahniah untuk diri saya:)

2 in 1 engagement day for ladies

assalamualaikum. to all. 

  kakngah hantar aku ke  rumah akak kat taman kosas ampang sebab nak ikut akak balik perak a.k.a rumah in-law akak sebab ada majlis tunang for 2 ladies. 2 majlis pertunangan dalam masa sehari. tapi different time la. sorang pagi and lagi sorang petang.
  nak talk sikit about adat pertunangan diorang. actually sama je tapi yang aku 'terkesima' ialah bout diorang nye hantaran. before this majlis tuang yang aku pergi hantaran diorang semuanya hot2 vogue2 and macam2. ada handbag, kasut,telekung, set perfume and so on. tapi kat perak aku tengok diorang nye hantaran tersangat la simple. 



  guess what? diorang bagi benda2 yang simple macam gula pasir, makanan dalam tin, gula2, kuih-muih and kek.. diorang hias semua barang2 tu cantik. sampai aku tak perasan pun benda2 tu. simple and sangat jimat. bila pikir2 balik memang betul pun apa yang diorang praktikkan sebab ni baru tunang, so tak perlulah nak berhabis untuk beli barang2 yang vogue2 just for hantaran. better spend duit2 tu untuk belanja time the day(wedding). it's more worthy. 

her day

oppss. kami pengapit..:)

pengapit yang over bergambar

hantaran

cuba teka ape ni..(nenas +kelapa sawit=kurma)

p/s: wedding of the year?

ICDC KINDERGARTEN

Assalamualaikum. to all




this entry i gonna tell bout what happen to my life last week. 


sepanjang 1 week stay kat rumah akak, aku kena ikut dia pegi ICDC Kindergarten tempat dia kerja. my sist ni teacher kat situ. so, student pun panggil aku TEACHER NABILA. how sweet. wanna talk a little bit bout this kindergarten. this kindergarten is practicing an islamic education and english language to all the students. semua subjek diorang belajar in english and all the teachers there are required to speak in english. every instructions are given in english. so, memang impress bila tengok certain students pandai speak english very well. another thing, sepanjang 1week kat kindergarten tu student2 ada hafazan class. and more time aku impress sebab diorang ni boleh hafal surah2 yang banyak ayat and hadith w meaning in english. lancar je diorang baca. impress tak? aku yang dah 19 tahun hidup pun tak pernah hafal hadith. so, bila duduk dengan diorang terasa kerdil. 


jom tengok kaki gambar ni berpicture bersama kanak2 riang..

w boys in qiraati class

boboy: ahmad muhsin, hasizzudin and adam anuar

gugurl

w them in hafazan class

w nurul ameera, marcella and qistina

that's all for this entry. okay. frankly speaking, even baru seminggu w them dah terasa seronok and miss them. hahaha..

p/s: can i be the best teacher.

teacher bella

assalamualaikum. to all


first week kat KL, aku stay kat rumah kakngah di Bandar Tasik Selatan. seperti yang dirancang, aku ke KL sebab nak ajar kanak2 riang ni. kira macam jadi teacher laa. macam2 subjek aku ajar. tapi biasanya aku ajar dua subjek ni je which are math and english. students aku ada 3 orang. standard 5, standard 2 and 5 year-old. so kenalah selak2 buku2 diorang ni. 
hah. sebelum terlupa. tengah dok selak buku teks english stardard 5 tiba2 je ternampak satu nama yang tersangatlah familiar. guess whom? ketua jabatan bahasa, mr.marzuki. hahaha..oppss..terkedu kejap. tapi no wonder lah dia boleh jadi writer untuk textbook tu. he deserved. okay, back to the topic. before aku datang KL, aku dah siapkan 4 buku for kids. setiap sorang student dapat satu buku according to favorite color diorang.(red-blue-green-pink). siap ada gambar kat cover tau. hahaha..what for buku2 tu? buku2 tu untuk diorang tulis nota and latihan2 yang diorang buat. sweet tak teacher bella ni. hahaha..termasuk bakul angkat sendiri pulak. enjoy ajar kanak2 ni. 
part yang paling best ajar amnah(5y) baca english story book. at first dia ni macam liat nak baca sebab rasa english ni susah nak baca. so macam2 lah kena umpan dia ni. last2 okay je dia baca. after few days dah buat class aku pun ajak diorang ni buat seni pulak. ala2 macam class seni. hahaha. ni pun enjoy jugak. kakngah pun join jugak. kitorang buat origami w color paper. macam2 yang kitorang buat eg:katak and baju. tapi class ni teacher pulak jadi student. sufi(11y) ajar we all buat katak. hahaaha.. seronok tengok diorang enjoy. 

p/s: entry tak bergambar sebab takde sape nak amek gambar. semua orang bz and dalam class tak boleh main2..hahaa..poyo jek...

sila ucapkan tahniah kepada saya!

assalamualaikum...to all

cepat ucap tahniah kat aku...hahahaa...kenapa? sebab semalam aku tengok bola lagi.. semangat tak?siapa cakap aku takde semangat patriotik? hellooo..i'm malaysian okay.. ofcoz la sokong malaysia.. hahaha...*bajet selalu tengok bola jek aku ni..

p/s: waiting for this sunday:)

harimau malaya vs. garuda

assalamualaikum. to all

saya bukan peminat bola sepak. tak pernah terlintas sekali pun nak tengok perlawanan bola sepak. tak kisah la malaysia lawan or even international. orang dok sibuk borak pasal Man.U, Liverpool bagai..tapi aku tak pernah amek port.. kalau yang gugurl pulak tengok bola sebab pemain2 tu handsome.. ada Steven Gerrard, David Beckam. okay, tak paham lah kenapa diorang suka tengok bola.. i'm not interested.

tapi semalam, first time tengok bola dengan penuh perasaan.. hahahaa.. sila gelak.. malaysia lwn indonesia. at first macam jual mahal tak nak tengok. tapi bila tengok sedara2 semangat dok depan tv tu siap jerit, aku pun join 2 kaki. itu pun 30 minit sebelum habis. at least tengok jugak kan. hurmm, football is not what i'm thinking off before. patutlah ramai gila bola. seronok tengok time ramai2.. gamat satu rumah tu we all jerit GOALLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sambil lompat2 sebab gembira sangat Harimau Malaya menang . it was awesome! it was my first time watching football match and hopefully not the last :) i love you HARIMAU MALAYA..

p/s: semangat patriotik itu perlu!

end of foundation.....i'm home

assalamualaikum to all

i'm home.. end of foundation year. after one and half years finally i'm done wit mr.foundation. goodbye miss lds, mrs.ldv, mr. es and mr. ss.. okay, i'm home now. leave them behind and keep them in memories :) let's start with new book and hope the stories inside are better than before.

i planned so much things for my holidays. guess what i'm planning to do?

1. plan A: ternak lemak di rumah
2. plan B: kerja part time kat KL
3. plan C: jadi cikgu comel yang bajet garang kepada kanak2 riang. stay with my sister.
4. plan D: buat tak tahu... haha.

wanna which plan i'm going to do? hahaha... plan A memang sah2 kena reject. konfem2 lah duduk rumah makan masakan mak boleh tambah berat badan aku ni.. so, terpaksa direject disebabkan i'm on diet. haha..sila muntah sekarang. plan B pun kena reject disebabkan banyak consequences yang boleh berlaku. at first plan nak stay kat home sweet home faris putra. but then, diorang ni plan macam2 within this holidays. so, takde orang kat rumah and my kakngah tak setuju kalau aku nak kerja. dia takut aku duduk rumah tu sorang2 plus kat kawasan apartment dia tu banyak 'gagak hitam'. so bahaya untuk aku stay sorang2. so, plan B is rejected. next is plan C, setelah discuss bersama yang dpertua, mereka just agree for plan C. jadi cikgu kepada kanak2 riang dirumah kakngah. tempat ni je yang secure. so, i'm going to stay in KL for the whole holidays.. plan D tu just in case. haha.. tak kena reject. :)

and actually, cuti aku ni tak dikira macam cuti sebab kena kerja:) just 1 week cuti and stay kat my home sweet home ni..

p/s: sorry, i can't look at your face anymore.

muet fever II

assalamualaikum to all..

yeah. i'm still in my room at this lovely hostel. it was awesome! metaphorically speaking perhaps.it is just for the sake of taking MUET which is not compulsory for ipg's students anymore. but then, we still here because we have paid for this exam and we already done our speaking test. so we just finish them all. tomorrow is for reading, writing and listening test. hope to get best marks for these test. so, please be good to me yeah. :)

p/s: the tears are gone with those memories.

my tears drop once more time.

assalamualaikum to all.

my tears is still dropping for uncountable times.

till when you wanna drop.

please, i'm not strong enough to let you drop again.

what for you drop.

just for regretting what had happened?

it just a waste.

i wanna save my tears for others thing which deserve to be cried off.

no one knows. my smile is never walk together with my heart.

stop all the crying. let me start a new walk of life.

my life is still moving on without you.

you with your life. me as well....

p/s: the end.

kawan vs. cinta

assalamualaikum to all..

this is my second entry for today.

tengok sat kat title tu. SESI KAUNSELING. eh.. cik bella ni ada masalah ke???? hellooo...i dont need any kaunselor yet. coz i still have many shoulders to borrow:) sesi kaunseling ni actually berkelompok means my whole classmates have to attend this kind of session. okay, to make it short, we were divided into 5 groups if i'm not mistaken. and each of group got 1 kaunselor-to-be. we got kak nad. for this session, we got a topic on L.O.V.E. we had to answer about 50 questions about relationship. just YES and NO answer. easy right? but then, quite difficult to answer. frankly speaking, i cant answer it well. why? can i leave this ques without answer? just go through with the questions and my kind of relationship is LOGICAL. there are 6 types of relationship.

1. persahabatan-cinta ini bermaksud kamu mencintai seseorang melalui hubungan persahabatan yg telah lama terhasil. kamu mencintai seseorang itu secara perlahan-lahan dr hubungan persahabatn kamu. kamu sendiri tidak menyedari yg hubungan persahabatan kamu telah bertukar kpd percintaan.kamu mengenali pasangan kamu dari hubungan persahabatan lagi.
2. romantis-seperti yang kita tahu, cinta romantis ialah seseorang yang memerlukan jiwa yang romantik drp dirinya mahupun pasangannya. hubungan percintaan yang memerlukan kata2 yang indah dan mengharapkan sesuatu yg manis drp pasangannya.
3. logikal-cinta ini ialah cinta yg kamu telah menetapkan ciri-ciri pada bakal pasangan kamu. dia seorang penyabar yang sanggup menunggu pasangan yang betul2 menepati ciri yang dikehendakinya.
4. permainan-banyak mempermainkan hati dan perasaan pasangannya. lebih kepada bercinta hanya untuk suka2. playgirl atau playboy.
5. pengorbanan-cinta ini dia sanggup berkorban apa sahaja demi pasangannya.suka membantu pasangannya dalam kesusahan dan berusaha keras demi yang dicintainya. hubungan yang ekstrem dan seorang yang penyabar dalam hubungan percintaan. sanggup berkorban apa sahaja sehingga sanggup menggadaikan kariernya demi pasangan yang dicintainya.
6. kepunyaan-cinta yang banyak mengongkong pasangannya. kurang yakin dengan hubungan yang telah dijalinkan. sentiasa was-was terhadap pasangannya.

aku tak berapa nak ingatlah marks for each one of them. yang aku ingat semua relation ni markah lebih kurang je. 4/5 and highest ialah logikal. after kak nad explain one by one jenis2 relation ni, we all pun discuss lah isu-isu yang best pasal cinta. ada banyak persoalan yang terbangkit. yang paling hot- sahabat, boleh ke jadi kekasih? kami bagi pendapat masing-masing and sebulat suara kami mengatakan bahawa seorang sahabat tak boleh jadi kekasih tapi akan kekal menjadi sahabat selamanya. and wanna know my opinion?

- cik bella kata: bila kali pertama saya jumpa someone which is a guy and hati kata *he'll be my friend, and forever he'll be my friend. but, when my first sight says this guy is for you to fall in love, and yet, he'll be my lover. ya, this is my principle in love. don't agree with me? who cares?

and one more thing in love, never believe and tend to sacrifices everything to any guy even you really love him before he becomes your husband. because, he does not deserve to get your sacrifices. it's no offence for you to in love because love is a special gift from Allah. love is too special to give to somebody who we never know. so, keep the love for someone who deserve for it and let him be the first to feel your love:)...i talked based on my experiences before. i wish to keep my love to HIM ...

-others said: bila hubungan persahabatan tu tiba2 bertukar kepada cinta, selalunya hubungan tu tak kekal lama. biasanya ianya akan menjadi lebih teruk. and kita akan kehilangan sahabat tu selama-lamanya. ya, i partially agree with them. and i'm afraid it happen to me.

......you all percaya tak cinta selepas kahwin? one of my friend believe this. because, she only believe on qada' and qadar and jodoh. sometimes, it's difficult for us to believe this. but then, this is the right path which we should go through. however, we never satisfy and keep finding the mr.right. and at the end of the day, we end up with tears. haha. inilah adat yang kita amalkan selama ni. so, we should change those mentality and start new leave!

the conclusion are....

1. cinta itu satu fitrah. kita tak pernah boleh halang cinta itu datang dan pergi. siapa kita untuk halang fitrah yang allah bagi. tapi percayalah, jika kita bijak tangani cinta manusia yang datang kepada kita, nescaya, allah akan bagi cinta manusia yang terindah kepada kita. tapi, ingatlah, jika kita terlalu asyik dengan cinta manusia sehingga lalai akan tanggungjawab kita didunia ini, maka cinta manusia itu tak kan kekal lama. maka, mohonlah kepada DIA berikan cinta itu bila sampai masanya dan kepada insan yang telah termaktub di luh mahfuz bahawa dia jodoh untuk kita. amin...
2. cinta kepada manusia yang belum tentu jodoh kita, tidak perlukan pengorbanan. untuk apa berkorban untuk seseorang yang bukan hak kita. jangan perhambakan diri kita pada lelaki yang tidak layak terima pengorbanan kita.
3. hubungan yang terjalin lama tidak semestinya mampu melahirkan perasaan cinta. so, kalau tak nak friendship tu end up macam tu je, elakkan bercinta dengan sahabat sendiri. tapi, kalau dah ditakdirkan sahabat kita tu jodoh kita, elak macam mana pun itu memang jodoh kita. maka bersyukurlah jodoh kita adalah lelaki yang dah lama kita kenal. so, no worries:)

that's all i think.. any opinion on this topic?just leave me a comment:) i'm glad to discuss bout this.. haha

p/s: kepada yang berkenaan: i'm afraid to lose you. that's why i could not make it even tried so many times. craving for your understanding :)

hari mengemas sedunia:)

assalamualaikum.. to all

morning for those who still do not sleep. tadi suasana hostel ni gamat semacam. itu tandanya kami semua dah habis exam and the most important, cuti sem a.k.a cuti sekolah dah mula... so semua orang busy mengemas bilik yang ibarat tongkang pecah sebab haru-biru dengan exam.

gambar hiasan. just like our room:)

next sem semuanya tukar baru. bilik baru. blok asrama baru. and roomate baru for those yang terpaksa tukar roomate and dengan rela hati nak tukar. in this case, i stay in the same hostel but then get new room and new roomate. so, we all semua sibuk lah mengosongkan bilik yang terlalu sarat dengan khazanah alam yang pelbagai. and for those yang rumah yang sejengkal macam aku ni konfem2 lah bilik macam kat rumah sendiri. so tersangatlah banyak barang yang terpaksa dibawa pulang ke pangkal jalan which is my home sweet home. terpaksalah kemas 2 3 hari awal dari diorang ni. berkotak2 dah barang2 aku angkut simpan kat bilik TV. disebabkan barang yang keterlaluan, dengan senyum simpul mintak tolong ayah datang 2 kali sebab macam tak muat je kalau 1 trip. tapi..... ayah dengan senang hati menolak permintaan anak manja dia ni. :( nak menangis je rasa. tapi.. anak manja dia ni dah matured. wekkkk. boleh muntah sekarang. haha.. pandai2lah berdikari yek cik bella. i managed to borrow mr.froggy. so, just drive and angkut semua khazanah2 alam tu. esok a.k.a hari ni, aku plan nak balik rumah senyap2..biar terkejut ayah kesayangan aku tu. *actually, my mum dah tau dah. siap order nak lunch kat rumah. okay malu. hahaha.. whatever... yang penting hari sabtu ni takdelah banyak sangat barang nak bawak balik. boleh lah berlagak dengan kanak2 kat sini konon macam tak banyak barang.. hehe.. poyo jek.....tapi tak perlu nak berlagak sangatlah yek cik bella. orang lain balik hari jumaat, kau kena balik hari sabtu. ni semua sebab mr.MUET yang dah tak wajib tu amek tu..it's okay muet tersayang, i'll do my best k. :P

.......okay. done one entry for 'tonight'. let's move to the next!

p/s: my tears dropped again..

entry pertama selepas EXAM!

assalamualaikum.. to all

this is my first entry after facing the lovely n kindly so called MR.EXAMINATION!!!!!

Okay, lets me introduce all the lovely papers ya.

1. first, miss LDS a.k.a grammar. this lady is so kind till all of us kind of SPEECHLESS. ya, it's difficult till i have no word to say. * just an exaggeration .
2. second, mr.LDV a.k.a writing and reading. this paper seems like our SPM i think. not bad. i have to understand 2 kind of long paragraph essay which is difficult to understand it well. but still can go through with it. and wrote two essays, 250words and 350-500words. the first essay is a guided one and the next i have to choose any one of the title given and write it out.
3. third paper is mrs. ES a.k.a literature. okay, this paper really killing me softly. one word for this paper, WORDLESS. honestly, frankly speaking, i'm not so into this kind of subject. literature!!!! owh please. i never falling in love with literature. just imagine how can i answer all the question given that day without reading all the novel and drama. i'm not an english book's reader. i'm not falling with them yet. but one day perhaps. within this 1 and half year foundation, i have to learn almost 10 poems, short stories, a drama of Macbeth, a drama of Trifle and a novel of To Kill a Mockingbird plus several others poem. but only 2 out of everything i learned in lesson only took place in that paper. okay, lets give a big. applause. on that day, i have to answer 1 unseen poem of night rider and a short story of quiet hour which we never heard the title before. and something that i think quite ridiculous, the poem cant be found in the net. and the short stories is too unseen. i could not understand the abstract given. and i think even they give me the whole story i still could not manage to understand it. talking bout the question given for the drama of Macbeth. a short question but quite hard to brainstorm the idea. give 2 ways how Shakespeare cultivated his audience in centuries. okay, what should i write. i never remember about this kind of person. not interested at all. so, i just wrote what i want. last but not least, the last question is about the novel of TKAM. the question asked us to relate the themes and timeless. and i'm not interested to talk about this question. that's all i can describe about this kind of WORDLESS paper.
4. last paper is mr.SS a.k.a social studies. its about our life. i love this subject. but then, i still think this paper is slowly giving me headache. so, no word for this paper because what i know is I HAVE DONE all the papers.

which one of these paper give you more description? of course the 3rd one. the one that killing me softly. but i'm still alive till now. alhamdullah. thank you allah for borrowing me this life me to go through. okay, the last paper end means WE ARE DONE WITH THE FOUNDATION YEAR. yeah. but still MUET is waiting for us this 19th november. so, lets have some fun.

all in all, alhamdulillah, i'm thankful that i have finished this foundation year and 4 years more to go through. ya allah, guide me to the right path to go through. Amin.

p/s: hope to get better :)

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birthday prank for 7th eleven!

assalamualaikum.. to all:)

happy birthday, kaklong:)

this week is actually an exam week. and i'm not suppose to write any entry right. hahaha..hopefully, this entry can be considered as practicing on writing an essay as tomorrow we will sit for LDV's paper which require us to write about 2 essays.. 

in this entry, i would like to share on the birthday prank which was held on last Sunday. this birthday prank was for my cousin, Kaklong CT who was born on 7th November. my cousins and i was planned this prank a week before the day as all of us were going back to our hometown for aidiladha. the best part is, we managed to collect money for this birthday celebration. i'm very glad because we have a strong bond between each other. we supported each other and gave full commitment on every plan we decided. the money collection was for a birthday cake and a special birthday present. other expenses was sponsored by our uncle and aunt. 

here the birthday girl-kaklong CT

to make it more memorable, i made a handmade box which can put something inside. guess what had we inserted in? .....we inserted birthday's notes for her. every each of us were required to write a birthday note on a paper and even my father and uncle wrote a very meaningful note for her. . its up to them to write on. this is the second best part :) as i said before, all of us gave the commitment. once again, i'm very glad with them.

untied the knots:)..jeng..jeng..jeng

on the day, which was night before her birthday, we gathered along and started the prank. we tied her eyes and hand and hold her hand to walked around our home. she started to scream. we just ignored her words. then, let her stood outside in the dark while we set up the party inside. after that, we brought her inside, in front of the cake and we sang a birthday song for her. the third best part is, we sang the song accompanied by the guitar. its sound so awesome. we untied those knots and she blew the candles with her wishes.

with us

with us

then, we sat together and she read all the notes given by us. she read one by one. nothing left. i believe, this is a very memorable moment to be remembered.

one of the notes, if i'm not mistaken, it's from zaimi

reading the notes given:)

the smallest note

the notes given from us

....yeah!!! we done a very great job! we enjoyed the moment. thanks to all.

special gift from us-a handbag which she wished to have

with all the presents

to my lovely cousin, kaklong CT, i wish for your happiness and may allah bless your way of life and give you a bright future to be experienced:)

to my lovely and supportive cousins, i love this moment, and i hope it will remain ever after.

photos of US

with kaklong syafiqah,

with syaza

with hasif a.k.a pakcik perasan macho

with zaimi, the guitarist

with her mom

with mak dara-kak yati n kak ogy n two boys

with hariz

with me:) n flower in the mouth

the triangle box

p/s: exams make me SPEECHLESS!