DIA lebih tahu isi hati

assalamualaikum. to all. have a very fine and nice day.

people can change if they are given a chance

dan Allah sedang beri aku peluang untuk aku lakukan perubahan dalam diri 

mungkin itu juga satu ujian Ilahi kepada aku, hambaNYA yang sering lalai 

one of my good friend said,

bila hati ini terasa untuk berubah, maka teruskanlah, kerana takut-takut rasa itu hanya datang sekali. 

DIA sering berikan peluang kedua kepada hambaNYA.

dan aku percaya kadangkala, peluang kedua itu lebih baik dari yang pertama. 

maka, jangan sia-siakan peluang diberikan oleh Allah. 

yang penting, jangan pernah berputus asa 

ianya satu ujian Ilahi untuk menguji kesabaran dan keimanan hamba-hambaNYA. 

notabutterfly: watched Jujur Aku Dayus 

tranformasi diri...

assalamualaikum .to all.

one of my good friend told me,

'bila datang rasa ingin lakukan perubahan dalam diri ke arah yang lebih baik,

 maka teruskanlah walaupun satu perubahan yang kecil."

and, i started to thinking whether i am ready to do the transformation of myself. 

am i ready enough?

yes i am. 

but still,

i have to slowly make a move. 

because, 

a drastic changes sometimes will be worst. 

ya allah, guide me, help me and bless me in my way of changing my self to be a better person. 

i did so much mistakes in my life. 

but, please do not make my mistakes as a barrier for you to give me your guidance and bless. 

aminnn... 

notabutterfly: mistakes is not an art. but still it has its own value whereby its may give a person such a valuable experience to us. so, don't afraid to make a mistake in order to learn something in life. (measwell,2012)

alhamdulillah..DIA sayangkan aku.

assalamualaikum.. to all..

how's your day? beautiful isn't it? i wish my day is heavenly beautiful. aminn.. 

look  the title. guess whom still loving me.?

 and i am totally sure HE loves you guys too. 

So, who is HE? 

HE is our Almighty ALLAH. 

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sometimes, we did something without realizing it is wrong and totally unrealized. 

do it happen to you?

YES, i do. 

and Allah had sent people to correct my mistakes. 

sometimes people doesn't like be corrected by others. 

but, i do love people who is critizing and reminding me about the mistakes that i have done. 

why?

because, they such realizing me that i should not do this and that. 

we know ourselves. 

but people see what is wrong about ourselves. 

so, do accept others' word. 

 one of my good friend said, 

"Allah loves you, that's why people said so"

ya allah, i'm not a good servant. 

but, i'm on my way to be good and better servant of ISLAM. 

aminnn...

notabutterfly:  2 teguran yang menyedarkan kekhilafan diri. terima kasih untuk teguran itu. alhamdulillah.

azura is not only a typical malay movie :)

assalamualaikum  to all :)

Saturday is the best day to spend a day together with our beloved. and today, i choose to spend my day with my lovely cousin Chacha. we shared a lot of stories together and we have planned something for our future. as we all know, we plan what we want to achieve in our life time, but Allah the only one can make it true.

The best in this outing was, we watched a malay movie of Azura which was directed by Aziz M.Osman and her own wife Lily as the producer.

This watching time wasn't in my list-to-do at first, but suddenly, we felt wanna watch a movie and Azura was the lucky movie for today. 

Talking about Azura,  its all about L.O.V.E, but, there are things behind this love story. 

While watching this movie, my mind kept thinking about the meaning behind the all the scenes in this movie. 

this movie is not only a typical malay movie that always show the ordinary story line. this movie is different and it shows to me how extraordinary it is. 

maybe there are people will silly look towards my comment, but this is what i see from this malay movie. 

first, i was somehow argued w some people about early age marriage. there is a question mark why people especially family, somehow doesn't agree when a teenager asks permission for marry her/his partner. this is what was happened in my family before i found the rational answer. and i got an answer from this movie. wanna know the reason of WHY? 

because, marriage is not an easy thing like we learn ABC or 123 or like we play a game such crossword puzzle. marriage is about to share every single thing in our life with our spouse. sharing means we do everything together and we share the easiness and the difficulties together.

but, when it happens oppositely, the marriage will face a problem even just a silly problem. 

  when talking about early age marriage, i am focusing on 2 in 1 couple who are marry and study at the same time. they are killing two birds in one shot. why i said so? because, they do 2 BIG things in life in 1 SHORT time. how incredible they are, isn't it? 

do they realize that the marriage phase is not an easy to go through? especially when they are still early in studies. don't they feel like to achieve their vision and ambition before they step into the next phase of their life? 

i got the answers for all the questions . 

and this is what i got. 

life is about something to be experienced, to be learned, to be explored. 

and i see there are things that will be a barrier to achieve certain things in life. especially in achieving our ambition and our desire.

people may say this, married person can still can achieve their ambition and desire. 

but, they don't see that marriage still build a block between. 

lets see a dialogue from this film,

"sanggup kau ketepikan cita-cita kau demi seorang suami?sedangkan kau punya masa depan yang cerah? "

2 difficult decisions to be made , only one can be chose. 

marriage OR future.

and my answer is, my FUTURE is in my hand. so, i would like to fulfill all my wish list first and marriage will come after. because, today is not the same as the back time. 

but, if Allah says, my time is coming in this few more years before i finish my study,

 i'm nobody to say NO. i juz follow what HE had decided for my life time. 

i wish to get the best from HIM. amenn.. 

*this is my personal opinion. i write what i think. any comment? please do write below :)

notabutterfly: i'm planning my future life :)

maaf. saya buat anda macam.......

assalamualaikum. to all.

selamat hari jumaat semua. mood saya hari ni happy :) rasa nak senyum sampai telinga. hahaha..tipu okay.  Alhamdulillah. semalam air mata keluar then pagi2 subuh saya dah tersenyum.

Kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan matahari, DIA datangkan pula petir & kilat. Kita tertanya2 kemana hilangnya matahari.. Rupa-rupanya Allah berikan kita pelangi..

try tengok balik title entry ni dgn intro entry.. macam tak synchronize jek.. hahaha.. tu baru intro laa.

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maaf, saya dah buat awak macam daun kering yang awak bagi :(

saya tak pernah perasan pun selama ni saya dah buat awak macam tu. 

bila nak saya cari, bila tak nak saya ignore awak. 

tapi awak sabar. 

tapi saya, makin lama makin ignore awak. 

kenapa?

 saya tak bosan. 

saya tak boring.

saya tak penat. 

saya tak letih. 

and i'm not sick of you. 

but WHY? 

saya sendiri tak tahu. 

walaupun saya tahu

saya ada jawapan tu. 

semalam saya termenangis. 

sebab rasa bersalah. 

sebab tiba-tiba rasa sakit. 

mungkin ini yang awak rasa bila saya ignore awak. 

padan muka saya. 

 this is what we called as

KARMA. 

my good friend always reminds me, 

that i wasn't suppose doing this to you. 

what have i done is totally wrong. 

YES

i ADMIT. 

totally my fault and mistakes. 

tapi awak tahu kan kenapa saya buat semua ni? 

saya tahu awak tahu.

 and to make it easier. 

saya rasa 

its better we just 

FOLLOW THE FLOW

hang up this story

and just wait  and this story end up by itself 

and  just let the time decides for us.

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notabutterfly: sometimes when we let the feelings grow up, we such welcoming the HOPE. 

wishlist di sebelah kanan------>

assalamualaikum .to all.

nampak tak wishlist kat sebelah kanan tu? hah.. hari ni nak story 1 per 1 pasal wishlist tu.

1. umrah : ni hajat aku yg 1st after habis belajar untuk bawak parents aku.. insyallah. semoga allah murahkan rezeki aku.. maksudnya dari sekarang dah kena buat SAVING..tak boleh nak shopping sakan okay :)
2. EOS 1100D : kenapa model ni? sebab yuna model camera ni! haha..mestilah tak. actually tak kisah pun model apa2. maybe time nak beli dslr ni dah keluar model2 yang lagi up-to-date:) so i'll choose that one yang lagi smart and better :)
3. swift : sebab dia comel :) n i adore the blue one :) seriously bernafsu bila tengok kereta comel ni. * even macam tak worthy tapi ni kan wish list. :P
4. Casa de Rio : cuba teka nama apa ni? jeng jeng jeng...sebenarnya ini ialah nama salah sebuah hotel di Paris  Melaka. suka hotel ni sebab betul-betul sebelah sungai melaka. and sangat suka suasana kat sini. opps.. nak buat apa dengan hotel ni? haha..sy nak honeymoon kat sini.. boleh tak? logik tak? haha..i don't care. pelik tak orang melaka tapi juz nak HM kat melaka.. mesti korang cakap dah takde tempat lain ke kat dunia ni??? haha.. actually macam ni: kalau mr.future husband aku orang melaka, aku nak HM luar dari melaka.. jauh2 dari melaka. tapi kalau mr.future husband bukan orang melaka,aku nak HM kat sini:) next HM baru pergi tempat lain okay :) * dreaming off
5. RM27592.00 : banyaknya RM.. haha.. cuba teka RM apa ni??? hahaha....tak boleh bagi tau :) sometimes there's something that should be left with Question Mark [?]

so, anybody yang nak volunteer untuk sponsor and tick [/] kat wishlist ni tak? sila angkat kaki n tangan :p. sy sangat menghargai and sayang lebih kat anda <3.... hahaha. JJK * aten said is as just joking. 

tak cukup lagi lah wishlist ni. sepatutnya ada 7 tapi belum terfikir lagi.. nanti i update lagi wishlist ni. 

sometimes there's something need to be changed and added up :)

notabutterfly: i might be afraid to lose someone like you because  you're such a GOOD friend to me. let's time decide it for US <3

birthday prank #1

assalamualaikum.. to all..

morning and have a nice day!!!
okay, tiba2 mata tak mengantuk. maksudnya boleh buat 1 entry untuk hari ini..
wanna story morry bout a birthday prank that has been planned by US (syida, ila, bella, aten, ika n fa) for SYAZANA FATIN actually ada lagi sorang (DIDI) tapi tak join sebab tertido ... . very simple prank i think. let's check what we have done for her birthday prank:

1. syida 'curi' jam kesayangan ana. then bungkus as if bagi hadiah birthday.
2. ika, ila n bella 'rompak' phone Nokia a.ka. cik KIA then sorokkan kat dalam bilik. and we all berjaya buat ana menangis :) sorry syg. 
3. syida 'tadah' air water cooler dalam baldi untuk simbah ana
4. ila 'pungut' telur ayam kat rumah untuk baling kat ana.. tapi aten dengan selambanya pecahkan telur tu dalam baldi yang berisi air water cooler. 
5. fa juz ready with camera sebab dia akan record semua yang jadi time prank.. 
6. WE all buat muka simpati sebab ana kehilangan jam and cik KIA. simpati tapi tak tolong cari... hehehe
7. main kejar2 kat hostel and rasa macam hostel tu kitorang je ada. oppss..dah takde senior nak marah macam last year :) 
8. ana yang dah basah lencun plus bau telur buat serangan balas kejar we all and peluk kitorang. okay, bau telur sangat hanyir ye :) please jangan main telur lagi.. 

so, dah tengok check list. you all agak2 siapa mastermind prank ni???? hurmm... the Mastermind is US .. so to make it fair n square, each of us will experience the birthday prank.. 

*gambar tak boleh diupload disebabkan beberapa faktor. 

notabutterfly: i love them :)

butterfly in my stomach

asslamualaikum. to all.

look at the title above :)
seriously so  many butterflies are flying in my stomach.
why?
haha..semalam 1st time jadi emcee untuk majlis formal di IPG tercinta ni..
alhamdullilah, semuanya berjalan dengan lancar atas bantuan cik syida.
before majlis mula, seriously nervous plus tangan ni sejuk sangat2.. okay as if duduk kat kutub utara la pulak. rasa dalam perut ni macam gerak2.. hahaha..ala2 ada butterfly tengan terbang gitu.. then, after majlis settle, tiba2 rasa panas n butterfly is flying away.. peace:) saya berjaya melakukannya.
this is my 1st time but not the last time. i have four more years to go. practice make perfect :)

* kepada anda : majlis tu tak hancur okay! :p


notabutterfly:  i'm not going to continue all the 'seniority' that has been practiced by them. something has to be  
                     changed. :)....

muka baru :)

Assalamualaikum.. to all

MUKA BARU...buat plastic surgery ke? oppsss..ofcoz la tak.. sy bersyukur dengan kurniaanNYA. tak sanggup rasanya nak mengubah ciptaanNYA yang terlalu indah. okay, melalut sudah.. actually, muka baru is referring to my new FACEBOOK. why i create a new one? hah, here my answers:

1. my previous FB was attacked by a virus and something had been posted by my FB which i never realized it till my friend told me. it wasn't me okay. video tu dipost dalam groups. Ingatkan 1 group je, rupanya a few more groups. okay, frankly speaking, SAYA MALU walaupun bukan sy yang buat. my friends knew it wasn't my fault. but then, still, there are people said i was the one who posted the video. see, how cruel this technology towards me. this is what we called a LIFE.. 
2. sangat takut sebab rasa macam maruah dicabuli, so, i decided to create another one which i only add MY FRIENDS and also MY RELATIVES. i won't be approved anybody who i never know. i learn something from this thing, which is don't easily believe anybody in this kind of world. 
3. sy semakin dewasa bila angka 2 dihadapan. i'm going to 20 just a few more month. and i think this is the best time to make a move and left the rest behind. at first rasa rugi sebab create new fb sebab banyak upload gambar. but then, bila pikir2 balik, i must start a NEW one. tak rugi bila kita buat something untuk dpaatkan yang lebih baik. kalau dulu, main upload je gambar2 tanpa ditapis, tapi sekarang saya janji, gambar2 yang akan diupload akan ditapis terlebih dahulu. matured tak sy? hahaha.. 

mungkin banyak lagi reasons tapi tak semua boleh dikongsi bersama. 

                                                      

this is my new email for my FB:  nni_bella27@yahoo.com

add me if you think that you're a friend of mine :)

till then. 

nota butterfly: muhasabah diri. mungkin ada khilaf yang dilakukan tanpa sedar. 

orientation days

assalamualaikum.. and morning to all

goodbye mr.foundation, thanks for treat me nicely. welcome mr.degree, please make me fall in love with you. 

dulu-PPISMP TESL1 intake JUNE2010

sekarang- PISMP TESL 1 intake JAN2012

dah hilang 'P' ke-2 tapi jangan risau sebab saya still lagi simpan kat dalam 'memory land' sy. sy takkan lupa anda even anda tukar nama. hahaahah..just crapping. 

cik bella dah masuk degree.almadulillah, dah tutup buku foundation and now sedang get ready nak bukak buku degree pulak. more subject to be explored and exposed. 

opppss.. terpanjang pulak mukadimahnya.. 

actually nak share about our orientation week which was held in just 3 days starting from 4th -6th Jan 2012. 

this is our 2nd time involved in this Minggu Pengurusan Pelajar Baharu.. even dah setahun setengah kat sini, we all kena jugak attend and kena ikut adat turun temurun which is wearing 'tudung itik' within that week. 

sweet tak??

pernah persoalkan why we have to have this orientation. we all kan dah study kat sini almost 2 years so tak perlulah susah2 nak attend orientasi ni kan.. and i got the answer why.. both orientations PPISMP and PISMP were absolutely different. coz pengisiannya berbeza dari pelbagai aspek eg: academic and Kokuriikulum.

even just few days tapi banyak info yang we all dapat. 

eg: to get first class honor, must get 3.8.

and banyak jugak yang we all pertikaikan about our ipg. bout rules and regulation, financial, etc. 

one of yang we all argued was about new baju batik. 

we all kena beli batik corak baru which cost us RM195. padahal we all dah ada and baru pakai almost 2 years.  we all tak nampak kat mana kepentingannya. tapi..... terpaksa sebab we're forced to buy it.

and banyak lagi... tapi, sebagai student kat sini, we have to accept it. 

that's all i think, not really in the mood of typing and sharing about this entry. 

peace:)

till then..

nota butterfly: we are bound to the rules and regulation. just follow them and enjoy your life. we have own way of enjoying our life as a teacher to be. 

entry pertama 2012

assalamualaikum.. to all.. 

1st day in 2012.. i'm not going to wish anything. don't ask WHY. 

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this entry is for someone who i owe him many stories but then i just wanna share only one for today.. the rest are still keep in 'buku 555'. okay!! don't worry you'll get them all , one day means not today.. 

yesterday, i promise to story you about the drama on 'aduh sayang' right...so let me write them here and it easy for you to read.. 

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aduh sayang. 

it's all about a life after married. there's a  young-married couple who have 2 little children. both husband and wife are working at different places and nobody can take care of their children while they are working. so, they decided to send their children to one of nurseries nearby. but then, their life is still look miserable as they could not handle their children very well. they have to wake up every night when the children are crying or else the children sometimes are under-controlled. they sometimes late to office, sleepy. and feel tired while working. these should not happen while working, right?

however, everything change after one fine day.......

one day, they visit their parents. and their parents could see how miserable their life are. so, they give an opinion to them to ease their burden. their parents volunteer to take care of their children and they may take them on weekends. it sound easy but for them, it's too difficult to let their children away from them. however, after thinking the pro and cons, finally they agreed and let their parents look after the little children. 

in just few weeks, a lot of things happen and the most important is they seem like more cheerful and enthusiastic in their office. everyone can see their changes. until, the husband get an offered to work at Melbourne. the husband gives an idea to the wife to continue her masters there. sounds good and everyone is happy with the offer except the wife because, she thinks about the little children. they could not afford to hire someone to look after their children or send them to nursery. so, their parents once again trying to help them. they once again volunteer to look after the little children while they stay there in 3 years. 

however, they only come back after 5 years. what do they expect after 5 years leave the children with their   grandparents. so many things change in 5 years. both little children are growing up. they start thinking about their parents and they are too close to their grandparents. they called them 'mak' and 'ayah'. can you see how close they are. they seems could not accept their own parents. and feel angry to them. they are too young to think the reasons of WHY. fortunately, their grandparents know how to talk to the children. 

to make it short, the husband and wife start to give up and admit it as their own fault at first. however, the children are also start to think about it. they realize that they should not do that to their parents. 

finally, they live happily ever after......

............THE END..........

that's all i think. i hope you like it.. so, you can mark as PAY in your 'buku 555'. hahaha.. the rest i'll pay it later.. later means not today.. 

okay, saya nak berbahasa melayu setelah mengarut dalam English language. okay, admit ayat tunggang - langgang. at least cuba okay. banyak yang perlu di improve. tahun baru ni saya improve okay. 

cerita ni sangat best. seronok tengok sampai rasa nak gelak guling-guling. kelakar and i wonder if it'll happen to me. semoga tidak. saya dah fikirkan solution untuk masalah ni semalam.  okay, my future husband take note ya.

this is my idea: 

• saya nak seorang m.a.i.d. tapi half day sebab saya kerja pagi sampai petang so malam saya boleh take over.. . 

reasons: 

• saya tak nak hantar anak2 kat rumah parents saya ok. 
• saya nak parents saya rehat goyang kaki je kat rumah 
• saya tak nak berhenti kerja selagi ada cara nak selesaikan masalah... penat2 saya belajar 5 tahun setengah kat ipg tercinta senang2 awak nak saya berhenti kerja... oppss, sorry.. saya tak nak sebab saya akan sangat sayang career saya as teacher. so, before get marry kita discuss pasal ni yek.. kalau tak saya tak nak kawin.. FULLSTOP. I DONT CARE....

hahaha..dah macam buat paperwork pulak... tapi ni la realitinya.. so, kepada my future husband seriously, take note okay. tak kisah siapa pun anda.. we'll meet after few more years okay.. saya taknak jumpa anda sekarang.. peace :)

that's all...till then. love you all.. 

p/s: future planning is a must. kita merancang, Allah jua yang menentukan.. semoga apa yang dirancang menjadi kenyataan. aminnnn... 

final tears for 2011

assalamualaikum. to all.

entry hanya bertajuk.
tanpa isi.
sy tak mampu berkata.
hanya ini yang saya mampu.
air mata ni memang disimpan untuk mengakhiri tahun 2011.
sy cuba untuk senyum sekarang.
tapi tak boleh.
senyuman ini untuk tahun baru 2012.
tapi azam sy telah pun bermula sejak 1 muharram.
............................
tanpa kata. air mata jadi saksi.

p/s: i'll let u drop till the last teardrop. but, i'll keep all the teardrops to wake me up from a fairy's dream.

vacation-CAMERON HIGHLANDS

assalamualaikum.. to all..

okay, let make it a simple entry.

• 1st time vacation at CH. *first and last perhaps.
• off to CH from 16 till 18 of DEC. w my sisters' family. 2 cars. 
• stayed at LILY APARTMENT at Tanah Rata. *very satisfied with the apartment. comfortable and affordable.
• weather: sangat sejuk and tak expect sesejuk itu.. maybe musim hujan. last day baru nampak matahari and tak perlu nak pakai baju berlapis2.
• 1st day- we just stayed at the apartment except for dinner bcoz cuaca sangat sejuk and belum terbiasa dengan keadaan tu. so, we chose to stay at home.
• 2nd day- after breakfast, we moved on to ladang teh at Cameron Valley Tea House. melawat ladang teh.. then, moved on to ladang strawberry. forgot its name. konon nya nak petik strawberry tapi belum musim pulak.. so just beli in packet.. melantak sampai lebam.. hahaha.. next, we all singgah kat kedai souvenirs.. tapi tak beli pape pun..amek gambar adelah.. sebab ada mini garden untuk lepak2 and ber'posing'..lupa pulak, before naik kereta i bought a tray of tomatoes . sangat sedap and crunchy..next, lunch hour..makan tempat biasa sebab tempat tu je nampak macam kena dengan anak tekak we all. before balik apartment, we all singgah kejap kat pasar tepi2 jalan tu.. beli jagung.. bajet nak rebus for minum petang... then, balik apartment and lepaks bersama both sisters. yang lain semua melantak tido. just like kat KL tak cukup masa nak tido.. hahaha..
• 3rd day-packing segala barang2 yang ada and we all gerak untuk breakfast then barulah pergi destinasi2 yang sepatutnya. disebabkan ni last day, so we all just pergi tempat2 for souvenirs. beli shirts for our parents and others. and i bought two strawberry LARGE and small for myself and Caca for her birthday present and of course i bought a few key chain for my collection.
• on the way back to KL-jalan sangat jam.. kalau tengok dari sisi atas kereta2 sepanjang jalan tu ibarat ular kena palu.. panjang giler. mestilah jam coz weekend and orang semua berebut2 nak turun. at first we all ikut jalan simpang pulai, jalan yang sama we all lalu masa datang. tapi disebabkan macam malas nak ikut jalan tu, we all turn back ikut jalan batu 14. okay, jalan tu sangat menggerunkan.. seriously, we all jerit dalam kereta. and honestly, it was the first time i wore seat belt. jalan bengkang bengkok boleh nampak curam and jalan tanah runtuh. okay, sangat mencabar. serious tak nak lalu kat situ lagi..

alright, that's all what i can say. even there's a lot of experiences. but then, this is the conclusion of all. let's take look on a few picture of ours..

that's all.. till then..night world.

baru sekarang terpikir..

assalamualaikum... to all

pernah tak u all terpikir kenapa ur mom suruh buat kerja2 rumah such basuh pinggan, basuh baju, kemas tempat tidur, sapu lantai, lipat baju and etc..? even u all masa tu kecik lagi and rasa macam tak patut je buat semua kerja2 tu time kecik.. patutnya time tu korang main 'pondok2', 'kawen2', 'cikgu2' and etc, bukannya dok susah2 buat semua housework tu .. and konfem sambil buat kerja2 tu mulut ni muncung sedepa sebijik macam mulut itik then merungut macam2...hahaha..pernah tak??? YES, I AM one of someone who wasn't satisfy when my mom or my sister told to do so..setiap kali diorang suruh buat kerja2 tu konfem dalam hati cakap TAKNAKKKKK...tapi mulut cakap YE and kepala MENGANGGUK..hellloooo..i'm too young to do those housework okay...

but then, time changed everything. and i am growing up and now i can think and found the reason of WHY....last week, my sist and i had a little discussion on why my mom told us to do everything by our selves. the only reason we found was:

• She wants us to learn how to manage everything by ourselves especially on HOUSEWORK because we are woman who will be a wife and a 'home maker'.

after the small discussion, we realized why she did that to us. now, i understand why she doesn't pamper me. and i am really appreciate on whatever she did to me because now i know how to do the housework accept cooking because this is not my 'expertise' yet. insyallah.. one day, i'll be one of the 'master' in cooking..hahaha..one day doesn't mean now.. sorry mom, i'm not so into cooking yet..

so, guys, how bout you? do you feel the same?...as for me, there must be a reason why our mom did every single to us. they want the best for us, that's why she teaches us how to manage those things even indirectly. sometimes we do not realize it. but, there are reasons of WHY....

that's all guys..

i LOVE my MOM so MUCH....

p/s: berbaktilah kepada kedua orang tua selagi mereka ada bersama kita.....

assalamualaikum. to all. simple entry but full of messages. 


Panduan ini dikirim oleh rakan-rakan dan saya sekadar ingin berkongsi dengan teman-teman sekalian. Semuga ianya memberi kemanfaatan pada kita semua……amiiin
Dikatakan :-
۞ Surah Al-Fatihah dapat memadam kemurkaan Allah SWT.
۞ Surah Yasin dapat menghi lan gkan rasa dahaga atau kehausan pada hari Kiamat.
۞ Surah Dukhan dapat membantu kita ketika menghadapi ujian Allah SWT pada hari kiamat.
۞ Surah Al-Waqi’ah dapat melindungi kita daripada ditimpa kesusahan atau fakir.
۞ Surah Al-Mulk dapat meringankan azab di dalam kubur.
۞ Surah Al-Kauthar dapat merelaikan segala perbalahan.
۞ Surah Al-Kafirun dapat menghalang kita daripada menjadi kafir ketika menghadapi kematian.
۞ Surah Al-Ikhlas dapat melindungi kita daripada menjadi golongan munafiq.
۞ Surah Al-Falq dapat menghapuskan perasaan hasad dengki.
۞ Surah An-Nas dapat melindungi kita daripada ditimpa penyakit was-was.
Seterusnya, bagi menangani Syaitan Durjana, dikatakan juga:-
۞ Ketika anda membawa AL-QURAN, respon syaitan ialah biasa saja, tengok je...
۞ Ketika anda membukanya, syaitan mula curiga.
۞ Ketika anda membacanya, syaitan mula gelisah.
۞ Ketika anda memahaminya, dia mula kejang.
۞ Ketika anda mengamalkan AL-QURAN, dalam kehidupan setiap hari, dia stroke....
Teruskan membaca AL-QURAN dan mengamalkannya agar syaitan terus stroke.
۞ Ketika anda ingin menyebarkan pesanan ini, syaitan pun mencegahnya.
۞ Syaitan kata, 'JANGAN SEBARKANNYA, KERANA IA TIDAK PENTING LANGSUNG!'

Sebar-sebarkan info ini Wahai SaudaraKu~

Jangan kita malas dan mengalah….ini mungkin menjadi setitik amal jariah yang bakal terhimpun menjadi telaga di akhirat nanti…

setelah sekian lama...

assalamualaikum. to all.

entry kedua untuk malam ni..btw, dah pagi dah. tapi mata ni still tak boleh nak lelap. kenapa? tu kena tanya pada en.mata.. hahaha.. sila baca title entry ni sebelum baca entry ni ye. kalau rasa title tu annoying, sila click cancel. tak perlu baca okay.

okay, straight to the point. setelah sekian lama rasa macam simpan anda, so saya dengan ini melepaskan anda dengan rela hati sebab dah tak tahu nak buat macam mana supaya hati ni kata YA. dah cuba macam2 cara. at least try. tapi still tak boleh. hati ni dah jadi batu kot. mungkin sebab dah lama masuk refrigerator. tapi one day, insyallah cair bila tiba masanya. nak suruh tunggu pun takut buang masa anda je. so, it's better cari bunga lain. mungkin juga anda dah ada bunga lain. hahaha..oppss.. terserkap jarang pulak. mungkin itu realiti.

really sorry coz let you waste your time for 'waiting' for something unsure. i can't force myself.. sorry once again. i wish for your happiness.. whatever it is.. we're still friend right. so, friend will never end.

rasa annoying tak dengan entry ni? sorry for being annoyed. bukan nak perasan hot or else. tapi, just wanna let somebody know that i'm sorry, really sorry and i appreciated him very well.

u, sorry ya. i tried my best. but, i cant. maybe memang dah prinsip i tak boleh nak kata YA. at least i try kan. anyway, thanks a lot coz being so good to me. it's not easy to someone like you. maybe you deserve someone better. we're not just meant to be together. *oppss..i terpoyo pulak.. whatever it is, we're still friend kan3?......

p/s: lelaki semua sama. :) peace.

alhamdulillah...anugerah allah

assalamualaikum.. to all

alhamdulillah. terima kasih ya allah. aku bersyukur dengan rezeki, nikmat serta anugerah yang kau kurniakan.

result exam keluar hari ni. bangun2 'pagi'* pagi sy pukul 11a.m je dapat mesej dari 'keroncong untuk ana'. dia inform bout result exam dah keluar. so, boleh check kat website ipg tercinta. daripada ngantuk2 kalau orang hulur bantal konfem sambung tido terus segar macam kena simbah dengan air. hahaha...exegerate je lebih.. bangun2 duduk kejap kat atas katil pastu termenung....tangan dah gigil ni...takutnya nak check result.. macam mana ni.. sampaikan my sist cakap biar dia check pastu dia bagitau after we all balik holiday. hahaaha..okay.. slow gi amek miss lappy kat atas meja pastu on...jantung dah dup dap dup dap.. tangan menggigil nak key in password.. jeng3..

ALHAMDULILLAH. aku lulus...macam mimpi je. pejam celik pejam celik mata sebab tak percaya..tapi tak tau la pointer berapa. syukur sangat2 sebab lulus. masa jawap exam hari tu macam tak konfiden je boleh lulus especially subject ES. sebab soalan tu tersangatlah killer. alhamdulillah. rezeki dari allah. okay penat lelah 3 semester terjawap sudah. so, esok boleh berholiday dengan gembira.

thanks to all for praying the best for me.

with lots of love, thank you very much.

p/s: kadangkala kebahagiaan itu merupakan satu ujian dari allah.

ceritera gelak guling2..

assalamualaikum..to all


this entry is specially post for miss diela. she wrote a story for me. story ape? jom baca. sia sedia untuk gelak guling3. tapi sediakan tisu sekotak sebab story ni 'sedih' okay..hahaha

Berakhirnya sebuah cerita

sekali lagi tgn menari...teringat kembali...gelak tawa bersama rakan...Ini khas buat Nur Nabilah ismail..lantas ku titipkan doa semoga anda sentiasa sihat di samping keluarga...<3 sy rindu kalian semua di IPG..<3

ila memandang sepi kubur yang masih merah itu.ternyata pengenalannya bersama johan selama 5 tahun itu terlalu sekejap baginya.ia Ila sedih dan pemergian Johan buat hatinya parah bersama rindu yang sarat. Sungguh mengunung rindunya pada Johan. Usai membaca Yaasin.Ila melipat tikar lalu beransur pulang. Myvi merah dipandu Ila membelah dada jalan. Tiada arah tuju. Fikirannya melayang.

"ouh! kenapa boleh hujan lagi ni. Jauh pulak tu aku nak berlari ke bus stop sana. "

sambil mengomel dan mengeluh panjang Nabilah atau lebih mesra dipanggil nabilah ini berlari anak menuju ke perhentian bas yang berdekatan. akhirnya dalam kekalutan membolos kan diri dalam kalangan anak anak kecil yang juga berteduh di perhentian bas itu menyebabkan gadis kecil molek ini cukup sesak.

"mana teksi ni. dah basah-basah baju aku dibuatnya.payung pun tak bawak dengan kertas periksa students lg.ish" mengeluh dan terus mengeluh smpai beg yang di pegangnya terjatuh

hujan masih renya renyai...anak anak kecik di perhentian itu pula sudah beransur ansur pulang menaiki bas sekolah untuk pulang ke rumah. Jam menunjukkan 3 petang. Hmapir sejam di perhentian bas.

"dushhh" buku serta kertas periksa di dalam beg ila jatuh bertaburan di jalan. di kejauhan samar-samar kelihatan kereta honda accord warna hijau kehitam-hitamna sednag membelah dada jalan menuju ke arah ila.nasib ila baik kerana kereta yang di pandu laju itu berhenti betul-betul di hadapan nya. pemandu nya keluar dengan wajah berang.

'hoi kalu ye pun nak tanda kertas budak tak boleh tnda kat rumah ke?yang kau sibuk-sibuk tanda tepi jalan ni kenapa?' jerkah pemuda yang segak bergaya mengenakan kemeja hijam dan tali leher ungu.

'maaf. kertas ni yang terbang bukan saya yang sibuk nak tanda.encik ni pun tak ada akal ke?masakan saya nak tanda kertas atas jalan.orang dekat hospital gila pun tahu benda tu mustahil.beg saya jatuh then kertas terbang.faham?so sekarang saya nak terima kasih sebab tak langgar saya tapi tolong agkat kai encik tu sikit.ade kertas saya.' balas ila lembut namun ada nada sindir di situ

"ermm maaf.saya tak perasan.btw saya johan." balas johan lembut smabil tangan nya ringan membantu mengutip kertas yang bertaburan.nasib hujan sudah berhenti dan tiada kertas yang basah.

"saya nabilah, nur nabilah ismail.people call me ila.just ila.thanks sebab tolong kutipkan." sambil menghadiahkan Johan suatu senyuman manis.

"ila. btw you got a nice name.sesuai dengan orngnya. ni tgh tunggu teksi ke?saya rasa teksi dah tak da waktu waktu macm ni..biar saya hantar awk pulang itu pun kalau awk tak keberatan" Johan mempelawa ila.

"erm.tak sushkan awk?lagipun saya br je knal awk kan?"

"tak pe jum naik kereta.tp awk dudk mana?"

"merlimau.tahu ke? dekat serkam sana"

"kebetulan saya ade hal dekat sana.politeknik merlimau.kita satu arah mmg elok je kalau saya tumpangkan awk"

hari demi hari ila dan johan makin rapat. tidak di nafkan muncul suatu perasaan yang sukar untuk di luah atau di ucap dengan kata-kata. Setiap hari pasti ada rindu yang bertandang di hati walaupun sudah menjadi kewajipan Johan menghantar Ila balik ke rumah. Johan rapat dengan keluarga ila. Pak cik Ismail dengan Mak cik Zaleha menerima Johan seadanya. Johan tak pernah seklai kenalkan ila dengan keluarganya namun jauh sekali hendak di ceritakan peribadinya. cukup lah ila tahu johan seorang engineer yang menguruskan sebuah syarikat atas nama latiflinda.corp.snd.bhd. sampai ke hari ini hubungan diorng sudah mencecah 5 tahun. namun Johan masih tidak pasti adakah itu waktu ynag sesuai untuk dia perkenalkan ila pada keluarganya. pasti ada sebab mengapa. Ada juga keluarga ila bertanyakan soal mereka, bukan apa.tidak manis rasanya berangkut anak dara orang namun hanya keluhan berat Johan tinggalkan sebagai jawapan.

satu hari Johan katakan pada ila hubungan mereka tak dapat diteruskan kerana dia kan di jodohka dengan orang lain.

Johan: Ila, abang mintak maaf tapi abang kena ikut ckp parents abang.dia adalh segalanya pada saya
Ila: ya ila sedar bang sapa ila.ila redha.jodoh ni ketentuan Allah bang.ila redha.\
Johan: maafkan abang ila.
Ila: takpa.ila Bahagia dengan abang
Johan: abang sentiasa sayang Ila.rindu Ila
Ila: Abang jangan bagi ila Hrapan lagi bang.cukupla.-

ila berlari sambil menyeka air matanya. ya itulah kali terakhir ila jumpa Johan..

seminggu selepas itu.Ila terima berita Johan sudah tiada lagi. Johan tinggalkan sepucuk surat buat Ila


ila.kalau ila baca surat ni mungkin abang dah tiada.maafkan abang sebab rahsiakan semua ni dari Ila.tapi abang tak nak ila sedih.abang nak ila ambil senyuman di bibir ila.senyuman tu yang buat abang jatu hati pada ila.ye abang dijodohkan dengan maut ila.ila. abang ada Leukimia.dah lama abag tunggu penderma namun tak da satu pun sesuai dengan abang.maafkan abang lagi Ila sebab rahsiakan dari Ila. Terima kasih sentiasa ada di sisi abang. Abang gembira. Abang sayang ila selamanya.

Nota kaki:okay ni memang feveret aku.btw hidup tu kadang kadang x seindah yang kita fikir kan?banyak yang sedih dari sukanya.erm..so since dari sekolah aku memg ade masalah mental kot sebab ending essay ak..watak kena mati.wajib.huhu..abaikan..thanks bellon bagi pinjam nama..jangan risau...kau akan dapat sumone yang akan sayang kau selamanya...<3 doa aku bersama kau bello <3

dah abes baca? korang gelak sampai guling2 tak? belum abes baca story lagi aku dah gelak guling2. rasa nak terburai isi perut. hahaha..exegerate lebih. tapi...tiba2 je rasa nak nangis. sebab macam sedih story ni. tapi yang buat aku rasa nak nangis bila baca notakaki dia. :(

to my lovely fren(miss diela): anda sangat hebat bila menulis story yang crapping tapi menarik.. u're welcome pinjam nama aku. btw, story line story ni macam bersangkut-paut je dengan story line cerita sebenar..hahaha.. and one more thing babe, aku pun doakan kau jugak akan dapat someone yang sayang kau forever. love you<3

p/s: saya dah lupakan anda. tahniah untuk diri saya:)

2 in 1 engagement day for ladies

assalamualaikum. to all. 

  kakngah hantar aku ke  rumah akak kat taman kosas ampang sebab nak ikut akak balik perak a.k.a rumah in-law akak sebab ada majlis tunang for 2 ladies. 2 majlis pertunangan dalam masa sehari. tapi different time la. sorang pagi and lagi sorang petang.
  nak talk sikit about adat pertunangan diorang. actually sama je tapi yang aku 'terkesima' ialah bout diorang nye hantaran. before this majlis tuang yang aku pergi hantaran diorang semuanya hot2 vogue2 and macam2. ada handbag, kasut,telekung, set perfume and so on. tapi kat perak aku tengok diorang nye hantaran tersangat la simple. 



  guess what? diorang bagi benda2 yang simple macam gula pasir, makanan dalam tin, gula2, kuih-muih and kek.. diorang hias semua barang2 tu cantik. sampai aku tak perasan pun benda2 tu. simple and sangat jimat. bila pikir2 balik memang betul pun apa yang diorang praktikkan sebab ni baru tunang, so tak perlulah nak berhabis untuk beli barang2 yang vogue2 just for hantaran. better spend duit2 tu untuk belanja time the day(wedding). it's more worthy. 

her day

oppss. kami pengapit..:)

pengapit yang over bergambar

hantaran

cuba teka ape ni..(nenas +kelapa sawit=kurma)

p/s: wedding of the year?

ICDC KINDERGARTEN

Assalamualaikum. to all




this entry i gonna tell bout what happen to my life last week. 


sepanjang 1 week stay kat rumah akak, aku kena ikut dia pegi ICDC Kindergarten tempat dia kerja. my sist ni teacher kat situ. so, student pun panggil aku TEACHER NABILA. how sweet. wanna talk a little bit bout this kindergarten. this kindergarten is practicing an islamic education and english language to all the students. semua subjek diorang belajar in english and all the teachers there are required to speak in english. every instructions are given in english. so, memang impress bila tengok certain students pandai speak english very well. another thing, sepanjang 1week kat kindergarten tu student2 ada hafazan class. and more time aku impress sebab diorang ni boleh hafal surah2 yang banyak ayat and hadith w meaning in english. lancar je diorang baca. impress tak? aku yang dah 19 tahun hidup pun tak pernah hafal hadith. so, bila duduk dengan diorang terasa kerdil. 


jom tengok kaki gambar ni berpicture bersama kanak2 riang..

w boys in qiraati class

boboy: ahmad muhsin, hasizzudin and adam anuar

gugurl

w them in hafazan class

w nurul ameera, marcella and qistina

that's all for this entry. okay. frankly speaking, even baru seminggu w them dah terasa seronok and miss them. hahaha..

p/s: can i be the best teacher.