my tears drop once more time.

assalamualaikum to all.

my tears is still dropping for uncountable times.

till when you wanna drop.

please, i'm not strong enough to let you drop again.

what for you drop.

just for regretting what had happened?

it just a waste.

i wanna save my tears for others thing which deserve to be cried off.

no one knows. my smile is never walk together with my heart.

stop all the crying. let me start a new walk of life.

my life is still moving on without you.

you with your life. me as well....

p/s: the end.

stop!!

entry finale bout the past. and after this no more entry bout the useless thing which i consider the thing as a man.. hahaha..

me myself, will never post any entry bout the thing anymore. because, past is past. and i'll never let the past touch my future, even my present.. i wanna live my life without the thing. i don't want to waste my time and also hurt my own feeling with the thing. so, from now onward, i'll never let the thing to appear in my entry. because i love my self more than everything.

i might let you touch my past till you tended to ruined it, and you screwed my present with those bitter memory. but, don't ever dare to come into my future even only a step.

one step you try to move, the hatred will ruin yours.....forever.

okay. i have done. ..

p/s: tomorrow.

i forgot my own words!

assalamualaikum. and a very good day to all

i forgot my own words!!!!!

after read all my notes in miss pinky, suddenly, i realized that i have made a mistake by let the hatred conquered my heart. that's why till now i still could not forget bout the past. even i have tried so many times. and now, after all, i should let the past to go with all the hatred. what i want now is a new life without the past..

u might have ruined my past, screwed up my present.

but i won't let you touch my future....

to somebody: i'll never forget what u have done. those memory will never let you to come into my life again.....just continue with your own games...ans we'll see how it'll last longer...

p/s: don't simply believe someone.. L.O.V.E =BLIND

penat mencari. i should stop it.

assalamualaikum.. nite or morning?? u decide.

apa la yang aku cari sampai penat tu ye?? haha.. cari email somebody. dah macam2 tempat aku try cari. but then, i found no where. haha. nak give up??? ofcoz la tak. tapi terfikir. maybe ALLAH tak buka jalan untuk aku jumpa email tu. hurm.. i believe HIM more. so i decided to STOP.

p/s: thanks my lovely smile. you save me once again.

untuk kali ke berapa?

assalamualaikum.

should i cry for the third time after the first and the second time?
every time i think bout i, my tears could not stop dropping.
was it my fault?
why i have to face those thing?
does HE warns me about something?
or i had done something which is consider as wrong but i never realize it?
am i the one who is offender?
ya allah, give me the strength to face all these thing?
show me the right path to go through.
ameen..................




p/s: tears keep dropping.

assalamualaikum..

entry tak bertajuk.

aku cuba menulis.
untuk ape?
kepuasan diri?
untuk merungkai persoalan?


p/s: i'm trying to write

7 years waiting for...19 days be with...

an innocent girl could not accept anybody even tried her best .

7 years she tried to ignore and avoid her feelings towards anybody because she believe all the words.. and hope it will come true one day.. but the end of the day, the words are just words without meaning..the innocent girl is waiting for something which is meaningless..

**********************************************************************

7 years with nothing..

but,

19 days be with...

i learned a lot..

i learned the reality of life.. thank you for encouraging me to learn more in my life..

19 years, i waste my days without knowing more in the real life..

i love this quote,

learn from experience, share knowledge and celebrate success

i'll remember those words..

am i ready and though enough to step up into this real life?

YES!!!

I WILL and I CAN...

with bless

insyallah.. the best promise....

now on wards...

i live my life without the 'hope' and left the 'promises' behind..

it comes back....

i got my feelings back.. but at the end of story.. i realize that i should ignore it because sometimes it's hurt to feel...

EGOISTIC

yes i am..so who cares???

whatever it is, i stick to my decision and my words.

just bear with it..

i'll never give up with it..

what for?

please go away..
what for you come to me??
i'm nothing to you.
so why must you find me..
i'm not for you
i have done with those feelings toward you..

pemilik cintaku setelah ALLAH dan RASULLULAH s.a.w

*click utk preview buku ni

alhamdulillah.. akhirnya dapat juga baca buku ni..thanks a lot to ASHRATUL IZZATI for this precious birthday present.. banyak benda yg aku belajar dari buku ni especially tentang CINTA. cinta ini terbahagi kepada pelbagai aspek dalam kehidupan. ada cinta yang memang dituntut dalam Islam iaitu seperti cinta kepada Allah & Rasul dan cinta kepada ibu bapa. ada juga cinta yang dilarang dalam Islam seperti cinta kepada insan bukan mahram. cinta inilah yang melalaikan. penulis berkongsi tentang kisah percintaan beliau setelah berkahwin. beliau sangat menjaga hati supaya tidak terpedaya akan bisikan syaitan yang sentiasa melalaikan manusia. percintaan beliau bersama suami tercinta tampak lebih indah dan bermakna kerana cinta ini diredhai Ilahi dan beliau begitu merasai nikmat sebuah perkahwinan.

dan melalui kisah cinta beliau, menyedarkan aku utk lupakan cinta manusia bernama lelaki yang pernah aku kejar suatu masa dulu dan kini aku lebih mengerti dan faham konsep yang ditekankan pleh beliau kerana setiap yang berlaku ada baik dan buruknya supaya kita berfikir tentangnya.

p/s: semoga hati ini lebih kuat..

alhamdulillah...

alhamdulillah.. untuk kesekian kalinya aku rasa bersyukur kerana masih diberi peluang untuk merasai nikmat sebuah kehidupan..

alhamdulillah.. syukur kerana ALLAH itu Maha Penyayang dan Maha Pemurah kerana tunjukkan aku jalan yang terbaik untuk aku lebih menghargai kehidupan dan menghargai nilai sebuah kasih dan sayang.. Allah berikan aku ujian untuk aku tahu menilai erti kasih dan sayang supaya aku tahu ianya bukan mudah untuk diberi dan sukar dimiliki..

alhamdulillah.. kerana kini aku mampu mengikhlaskan hati memaafkan dan menerima takdir-NYA..kini aku mampu buang segala perasaan yang pernah ada..terima kasih buat insan yang telah berjaya hilangkan semua perasaan itu..dengan 1 jawapan aku berjaya hilangkan perasaan sayang, marah, benci dan dendam..dan kini yang tinggal perasaan ikhlas semata-mata kerana ini yang terbaik dari ALLAH..

indahnya sebuah kehidupan jika ALLAH sentiasa ada disisi...

YESTERDAY WAS A FAIRY TALE.. BUT TODAY IS A REALITY

MOOD: today was a fairy tale..


this is not a fairy tale story, not even a CINDERELLA story..

but this is MY STORY


yesterday, i was DREAM to be with you.. but today, i'm no longer THINK about you.. not for a second..

yesterday, i HOPED to live my life with you, but today, i'm no longer WANT to live with you.. never

yesterday, i was the HAPPIER person in this world because of your love, but today, i am the HAPPIEST person in this world because i'm no longer love you

yesterday, i KEPT THINKING about you, but today, no more YOU IN MY MIND...

yesterday, you're my PRIORITY, but today, YOU never and no longer my PRIORITY..

yesterday, my SMILE was only for you, but today, my SMILE is not yours anymore..

yesterday, I'M YOURS, but today, I WILL NEVER BE YOURS..


FULL STOP...

YESTERDAY IS NOT THE SAME WITH TODAY..


I HOPE FOR SUNSHINE FROM ALLAH.. ONLY FROM HIM..

I ONLY THINK ABOUT ALLAH.. I ONLY WANT HIS LOVE..
HIS LOVE IS MY PRIORITY NOW AND FOREVER INSYALLAH..

AND MY PRIORITY ARE MY FAMILY AND MY LIFE..

MY SMILE IS ALWAYS FOR EVERYONE.. THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO MAKES ME SMILE...

you are not welcome to my life

JUST GO AWAY...FULL STOP..

alhamdulillah...finally

alhamdulillah.. i done with all my feelings towards you..
no more tears


and no more love for you


accept for

I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU AND I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER WHO ARE YOU....

but dont worry ya.. i'll never hate you..


tq for those things.. i appreciate it even i knew you never appreciate me as well...
whatever it is..nothing will never be changed..i stick to my decision.. no more place for you in my life.. once i said no it will be never forever..

aku semakin mengerti...

no other words accept for
ALHAMDULILLAH..

HE MAKES ME REALIZE MY MISTAKES.. I REALIZE HOW FAR AM I GOING TO.. I SHOULD NOT DO THAT.

YA ALLAH, WHAT HAVE I DONE..
I HAVE GIVEN CHANCES TO FEEL THE FEELINGS.. I HAVE BEEN GIVEN CHANCES TO FEEL HUMAN 'S LOVE.. YOU HAVE GIVEN ME THOSE THINGS TO MAKE ME THINK ABOUT IT..

YA ALLAH, THANKS A LOT COZ GIVING EVERYTHING
YOU GIVE IT FOR A WHILE AND TAKE IT BACK BECAUSE YOU ALREADY KNOW THE BEST FOR ME AND MY LIFE..

I NEVER AND EVER REGRET FOR THE THINGS HAPPEN TO ME.. I ACCEPT IT.. I'LL MAKE IT AS MY OWN EXPERIENCE AND OF COURSE CAN BE USE AS MY REMINDER.."DON'T EASY MAKE A DECISION AND DONT SIMPLY ACCEPT MAN'S LOVE..."

WHAT I NEED NOW IS...YOUR LOVE AND MY FAMILY AND FRIEND..
I ALREADY HAVE YOU AND THEM..
SO CLOSE MY HEART UNTIL SOMEONE WHO DESERVES FOR IT COMES INTO IT...



P/S: mybe i'm just talk nonsene..something keep playing in mind..

one more time...

please go away.. please get off from my life..and dont ever try to come back..
i dont want to keep your eyes. i'm tired of it..
i am the one who trying hard to get the best.. how bout you?
sorry to say.. once again.. I AM TIRED ENOUGH!!!
TQ..

perfect two...

i love this song very much.. why?? it is because of the lyrics. it's simple but perfect..it's all about two person whose are in love and hope they are perfect match. and i am one of them who really hope that one day i'll find someone who will complete my life. i am waiting for that moment and i believe he will come. insyallah..

You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages
You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as were together

i love this part so much.
this is showing that HE has determinate out destiny..our life's partner..
everyone will belong to someone..everyone have their own destiny..
even though we manage to find someone that we really love, but dont ever and ever forget that ALLAH, determinate everything..
WE PLAN AND HE DECIDE...
it's QADA' and QADAR...
just accept it and believe that there is a wisdom..
everything happen for a reason..

i realize something

hari ni banyak benda menyedarkan aku tentang realiti dan hakikat sebenar sebuah kehidupan. hidup tak selalunya indah dan hidup ini tidak semuanya sempurna. mungkin di mata insan yang kehidupan kita cukup sempurna tapi masih ada kekurangan di dalamnya tanpa disedari oleh mereka.

ada tiga kisah yang aku dengar dari seorang insan. dan hati aku ini begitu tersentuh dek kelalaian dan kesilapan aku. kisah pertama inilah yang amat menyentuh hati seorang anak ini. seorang anak yatim yang agak susah kehidupannya kerana mengharapkan seorang ibu tunggal membanteng tulang untuk menyara kehidupan anak-anak mereka. setiap kali mengakhiri perbualan pasti tidak lekang dari bibirnya menyebut,"kakak sayang ibu". dan aku mula terfikir adakah aku selalu menyebut "ila sayang mak, ila sayang ayah" setiap kali aku berbual di telefon????honestly, jarang aku cakap mcm tu kat parents but dengan someone else aku senang nak say I LOVE YOU..

and aku mula sedar bahawa aku ini bukan la anak yang baik. bila aku nk berubah???

BELLA, YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN MAKE A CHANGE. NOBODY ELSE.

one more yang buatkan aku tersedar dengan realiti sebuah kehidupan ialah, kisah seorang teman yang kehidupan keluarganya agak susah. aku bersimpati dengan nasib yang menimpa keluarga teman ku ini. dan aku tahu dia sangat bersyukur dapat masuk ipg ni. same goes to me actually. satu ayat dia yang aku sangat terasa dan tersedar ialah, kerana kesusahan inilah yang membuatkan dia tidak merasai keseronokan yang aku dan teman2 yang lain rasa. kerana inilah juga dia tidak terfikir untuk BERCINTA....dia ingin membalas jasa dan pengorbanan ibu bapa nya dulu. aku juga begitu tapi dalam masa yang sama aku ignore arahan parents aku. tak bagi kawan tapi kawan juga. tak bagi contact tapi still contact.

huh..bella, macam mana lah nak balas jasa mereka kalau kau still tak dengar cakap mak ayah kau..BELLA..BELLA..BELLA

aku sedar bahawa banyak lagi realiti kehidupan yang aku belum rasa. kadang-kadang takut nak hadapi realiti itu tapi sampai bila nak hidup dalam fantasi yang direka oleh khayalan sendiri? fikir-fikirkanlah...semoga masih ada lagi ruang dan kesempatan untuk aku merasai sebuah kehidupan yang diredhai-NYA..amin.

think about it!

Dear Parents. Jasmine was in a relationship with a dirty homeless boy named Aladdin. Snow White lived alone with 7 men. Pinnochio was a liar. Robin Hood was a thief. Tarzan walked around without clothes on. A stranger kissed sleeping beauty and she married him. Cinderella lied and snuck out at night to attend a party. You can't blame us. We were taught to rebel since a young age.