YESTERDAY WAS A FAIRY TALE.. BUT TODAY IS A REALITY

MOOD: today was a fairy tale..


this is not a fairy tale story, not even a CINDERELLA story..

but this is MY STORY


yesterday, i was DREAM to be with you.. but today, i'm no longer THINK about you.. not for a second..

yesterday, i HOPED to live my life with you, but today, i'm no longer WANT to live with you.. never

yesterday, i was the HAPPIER person in this world because of your love, but today, i am the HAPPIEST person in this world because i'm no longer love you

yesterday, i KEPT THINKING about you, but today, no more YOU IN MY MIND...

yesterday, you're my PRIORITY, but today, YOU never and no longer my PRIORITY..

yesterday, my SMILE was only for you, but today, my SMILE is not yours anymore..

yesterday, I'M YOURS, but today, I WILL NEVER BE YOURS..


FULL STOP...

YESTERDAY IS NOT THE SAME WITH TODAY..


I HOPE FOR SUNSHINE FROM ALLAH.. ONLY FROM HIM..

I ONLY THINK ABOUT ALLAH.. I ONLY WANT HIS LOVE..
HIS LOVE IS MY PRIORITY NOW AND FOREVER INSYALLAH..

AND MY PRIORITY ARE MY FAMILY AND MY LIFE..

MY SMILE IS ALWAYS FOR EVERYONE.. THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO MAKES ME SMILE...

project?

huh..short entry perhaps
cik bella, bila mahu mula buat projek anda????



konon nk bg hari tu..
nasib baik tak janji kat bff nak bg ape and bile..

bila..bila...bila???????????????

hurmm..bila ye?

you are not welcome to my life

JUST GO AWAY...FULL STOP..

today. free. time.

suppose we all ada class sampai kul 3ptg. but then, lecturer tak sihat so class cancel.. so apa lagi,miss bella yg kuat jalan ni pun mula merancang untuk keluar... hahahaha..tak tau ajak sape..tiba2 ada sorg kanak2 riang lagi comel pelawa naik motor ngan dia...terbaik la kan..dah laa aku ni penakut naik motor.. tp takpe..kanak2 comel ni da ajak.. maka kami pergi bersama.. dr kul 3 sampai kul 5 kot.. tawaf Jusco Bandaraya.. hajat di hati nak beli sport shoes tp dibantah oleh kanak2 riang bernama FA.. ni antara dialog dia supaya kau tak beli..'boleh tak kau beli time ada sale????'opsss...hurmm....alaaaaaa....sambil tgk2 kasut smbil berfikir...dr 1 kedai ke 1 kedai yg lain..dr harga yg mampu smpai la harga yg belum mampu... and finally... TAK JADI BELI...terima kasih kpd cik FA yg comel sbb pengaruh sy supaya x membazir...

petang..konon mcm rajin nk gi bukit serindit..nk jogging.. last2 disebabkan kepenatan...tak jd pegii.kesian kat kanak2 yg lain...tp sbb tak nak hampakan mereka, aku pun join gi riadah... 1st gi gym. tp cam boring. so jalan2 kat track pgl.. 1 round bosan. last2 dpt idea nk bwk basikal..maka kami pi la pinjam basikal2 kat hostel tu..

seriously dah lama tak bawak basikal...kekok je rasa time bwk...mcm bdk baru belajar je...hahaha...seronok berbasikal round ipg tercinta bersama ashratul izzati.. i lovin'it.. nnti ada masa kita bwk basikal lagi ok ash!!!

alhamdulillah...finally

alhamdulillah.. i done with all my feelings towards you..
no more tears


and no more love for you


accept for

I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU AND I DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER WHO ARE YOU....

but dont worry ya.. i'll never hate you..


tq for those things.. i appreciate it even i knew you never appreciate me as well...
whatever it is..nothing will never be changed..i stick to my decision.. no more place for you in my life.. once i said no it will be never forever..

cake hangus!!!

mood: nak buat cake..
disebabkan ada instant flour yg nak expired next week so aku pun rasa nk mencuba drpd biarkan tepung tu expired mcm tu je...hurmmm...first time buat cake..mak cakap takpe kalau tak jadi sbb first time..kalau keras boleh baling je kat dinding...ahahah..dapat moral support dr mak..

excited nye sediakan bahan2..semua bahan dah ada so tak yah beli pape..


time adun bahan2 tu mcm teror je...hahaha..mula2 nmpk ok..excited la jugak..



time bakar tu nak dijadikan cerita aku lupa nak set masa.*actually tak tau pun masa dia..plus tak reti guna yg manual...tu la bella suka sgt pakai yg moden...

maka inilah nasib si Cake Butter tu....frustnya!!!!!!!!


semalam time tgk kek jd macam ni rasa mcm nak nangis je..tp mak ckp takpe learn from mistake...syg mak sgt2...next time boleh cuba lagi..


P/S: saya budak baru belajar kalau salah tolong tunjukkan...haaahahaa...

I'M IN LOVE!!!!!

entry kali ni nak story pasal L.O.V.E

aku baru je frust bcoz of man's love..tp sekarang ni AKU JATUH CINTA LAGI!!!!mak tolong la anakmu yg single nie....hahaa..ayat tak boleh bla...

serious memang ngah falling in love..always in my dream...siang malam ingat kat 'DEAR'.. nak sangat 'DEAR'..hurmm..tp macam mana ye???

nak tau siapa DEAR yg aku maksudkan?

jeng jeng jeng

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ni la si empunya badan...


teringan nak DEAR..hurmm..ntah bila laa dapat DEAR..sape nak bagi ye..boleh tak kalau nak mintak as hantaran drpd MR.RIGHT??boleh je..kan..kan..kan..haha..okay, kepada bakal MR.RIGHT, sila take note ya..haha..i'm just craping..

actually, aku mmg suka amek gambar..bagi je aku camera pape konfem full memory..hahaha.. I LOVE TO CAPTURE THINGS..

aku makin jatuh cinta ngan DEAR ni disebabkan MR.Marzuki bg aku pakai DSLR dia yg berat tu time test hockey.. semua pictures cun je..best bangat..saya mahu kamu!!!
and disebabkan seronok sangat amek gambar, aku fail test tu..padan muka kau bella..tapi takpe..we all yg fail ni boleh repeat..
ni antara pictures yg aku amek..Mr.Marzuki upload kat FB dia..



yg penting aku enjoy petang tu sebab dapat bermanja dengan DSLR even tu orang punya...insyallah, one day aku akn dapat DEAR tu...

P/S: ada sape2 yg murah hati nak bagi tak???

Kem Lanchang,Pahang

weekend at Lanchang,Pahang.
penginapan 3 hari 2 malam.
di hotel 5 stars bertaraf antarabangsa.

one word from me, this camp was very great plus awesome!!!
why? because i learned a lot form this camp. i got new experience.. i like!!
a lot of activities here.

FIRST DAY, 1APR2011

first of all,

* bird watching- best coz i got experience to use this





i could see the birds flying and other things fly around there..

* went to the 'ZOO'

seriously sangat kagum!!! why? because inside the zoo i could see and talk to the animals.. hahaah..*craping...actually haiwan2 tu telah diawet untuk tujuan kajian and of course for education. rasionalnya untuk future genaration dapat tengok secara dekat haiwan2 ni kalau2 haiwan2 ni dah pupus.. so that takde laa mereka ni just dapat tengok gambar.. macam2 ada.. actually ada 3 jenis pengawetan. tp tak ingat secara saintafik..kalau tak silap specimen(kering), basah(kimia) dan tulang.. gajah, harimau, badak, beruang dll ni diawet secara kering.. actually, binatang2 ni akan diawetkan secara kering then organ2 dalaman akan dikeluarkan then baru lah direka bentuk ikut kreativiti orang yang buat. next, secara basah ni biasanya binatang macam katak, ular, labah2, dll. binatang ni akan diawet guna bahan kimia. part ni paling menggelikan coz banyak katak yang diorang ada.. and diorang pun ada awet katak yang sangat besar ala-ala cerita Putera Katak kat TV3. last, tulang ni biasanya diorang awet binatang sepeti ular dll. actually, semua binatang yang ada tulang boleh diawet tulang rangka.


then kami dapat tengok Harimau yang ada sejarah hidup yang sangat sedih.. kesian sey.. why??? nama harimau ni Si Awang Belum yang Malang.. actually kena jerat oleh manusia yang takde hati plus perut. Si Awang Belum ni tried hard utk lepaskan diri so kaki dia cedera teruk.

this is Si Awang Belum

our first night.. serius memang ngantuk tp malam tu aku kena duty..dr 1pm till 3 pm..time duty tu tak wat pape melainkan makan borak gosip n so on..hahaha..patutnya round campsite..tapi rasa macam selamat je tempat tu...

next day, 2APR2011
subuh tu group kami and another group kena bagi tazkirah based on lagu nasyid then kena huraikan maksud tersurat and tersirat.. kami pilih lagu Fatamorgana..then ANA selaku bakal ustazah yg huraikan nasyid tu..



then ada exercise pagi..kami wat poco2..takde picture laa.

next we all divided by 2 groups PINK N GREEN for 2 difference activities.. orienteering and jungle trekking..

so group aku dpt jungle trekking dulu..from this kami dapat banyak input tentang hutan flora fauna and everything bout environment..

PICTURE TAK DAPAT NAK UPLOAD SEKARANG COZ ASH BELUM BAGI SOFTCOPY PICTURES..next time i'll edit this post ok..

after lunch and solat, we all pegi SANTUARI GAJAH, KUALA GANDAH. kat sini dapat bagi gajah makan , and dapat naik gajah.. best sey..

next kitorang gi rumah orang asli CEK WONG..kat sini dpt try menyumpit


next destination, we all ke DEERLAND..kami dpt jumpa the owner, Hj Abdullah if im not mistaken.. kat sini of course laa banyak binatang namanya DEER..kami diajar macam mana nak bagi makan kat deer ni...tgk laa picture bawah nie..seram sey..



aku ni memang manusia paling takut dengan binatang.. takde pun picture aku ngan mereka2 coz aku sibuk amek pic org lain.. TABIK SPRING laa kat diorang yang berani..huhu..

kat sini pun ada BERUANG.. tak leh nak manja2 just boleh take a picture..


ular pun ada jugak..


memang menarik DEERLAND ni.. byk experience kat sini..thumbs up to them..

then kami pulang ke pangkal jalan.. after rest kitorang ada RENTIS SUNGAI pulak..kena tutup mata pegang bahu kawan2 n dengar arahan leader..seriously rasa kekurangan penglihatan.. at first ktorg jalan by group. then kena jalan sorang2 follow tali yg ada untuk sampai ke destinasi yg sebenar..aktiviti ni mmg best..mencabar.. time ni tak boleh bwk pape so camera pun tak boleh...hurmm..so tak dpt upload pictures time nie..nnti aku try dptkan pictures dr Pakngah..

sgt penat activiti petang tu..malam ada Malam Budaya.. Group Langsat wat Choral Speaking.. tema pasal Alam Sekitar..we all dpt no.4..group lain gempak giler performance diorang..diorang semua ada bakat yang terpendam..especially SITI MAS EKA..haha...not bad suara dia..terkejut time tgk dia nyanyi..wowwwowow..haha

LAST DAY, 3APR2011

group aku kena gi orienteering pulak..first kitaorang belajar nk baca bearing..senang la jugak..tapi sekarang ni cam lupa sikit sbb bearing takde depan mata..haahaa...aku partner ngan ASH..konfiden je time masuk hutan tu.. last2 tersesat sebab terlepas pandang 1 checkpoint bearing..jauh la jugak kitaorang jalan sampai laa jumpa sungai..nasib baik la faci bgtau kalau jumpa sungai maksudnya dah sesat..so kami pun patah balik n dapat keluar...dalam hutan tu banyak MR.PACAT kiss aku.. saja nk tinggalkan kenangan..

last activity, we all kena wat LUKISAN ALAM..nk tau macam mana rupa lukisan tu???
hurmm..nnti aku upload ya..just explain sikit dulu.. kami kena wat model kat atas tanah..tema nya mcm biasa alam sekitar..

okay, sudah mahu pulang..ada majlis penutup.. bla..bla..bla..dah boleh balik..after zohor..gerak kul 2 sampai IPG tercinta kul 9 malam..

i'm back!!!

okay butterflies.. i'm back!!!
but tired enough to story morry tonite..
wait for tomorrow ya!!
lots of stories to story...
hahaa
c u tomorrow!!!

oppss...another camp to attend

assalamualaikum

sekarang nie jam menunjukkan 3:14 am.. actually dah tido td but then dikejutkan oleh kak zu coz diorg baru balik dari IB..nasib baik laa aku terjaga bila ada phone call..kalau tak konfem esok aku akan rasa sangat bersalah sebab menyusahkan mereka yang dah penat tu.. alhamdulillah..this is my responsibilities to take care of the key..

and sekarang nie agak susah nk tido..tp actually boleh je tido kalau paksa...

lagi beberapa jam we all nk gerak ke Lanchang, Pahang.. ada camp under PJ Department.. Pakngah Hisyam ckp tempat tu best and the others unit pun ckp benda yg sama.. but ada benda yang perlu berjaga-jaga..especially MR.PACAT yg sangat mesra dgn manusia...okay.. itu sgt takut.. mcm2 jgak la ktorg prepare as the precautions..

Nnti dah balik sini i'll story morry with you ya miss blog. wait ya..just 3 days and 2 night.. i'll miss you babe...


P/: MR.PACAT SILA BUAT BAIK DENGAN KAMI SEMUA...

Teater LAT Kampung Boy Sebuah Muzikal

salam for everybody..

i'm just arrived from KL.. i am tired enough right now and feel like wanna sleep..but i cant.. huh..omg..i want to sleep please!! some body help me.. hahaahaha.. i am just craping such like playing around the bushes.. hahaha..yes i am tired enough but can't wait to share my story.. wanna story morry with you laa miss blog.. just for a few minutes then i'll stop ok..dont worry i dont want to talk too much..

March 30, 2011 my friend and i were having a very great day at Istana Budaya to watch Teater LAT Kampung Boy Sebuah Muzikal>span...i dont know much about this cartoon and even the cartoonist..so i joined them to have new experience of watching a theater perhaps..

we arrived there at 8.00pm because our tickets at 8.30pm.. so we performed Isya' prayer first so we dont have to worry about it while watching the play.. we went up to the 3rd floor i think and get into the hall..i am very excited actually.. this is my first time and i really hope the play is not boring as some of my fellows said before...

my seat at Panggung Sari B29 3rd upper circle.. okay.. i am ready...

jeng jeng jeng....haahaha

the play started with Lat's childhood life.. till he lives his life.. it showed how Lat throughput his life being a cartoonist.. many obstacles he faced..

one part that i love here is when Mrs.Hew, Lat's English teacher said
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"DO WHAT YOU LOVE, LOVE WHAT YOU DO"

she motivates her students to decide what they want to be in future..Mrs. Hew is also encourage Lat to be cartoonist because for her, Lat has such a very good talented that should be improved and can be go further. as a teacher she wants the best for their students. and as teacher to be this really motivated me to be a very good teacher in future..

a lot of things to be story but yeah...I want to sleep..tired and sleepy enough..

whatever it is, everyone has their own comments towards this theater. so mine is

it was AWESOME!!!!!


tq for singgah sebentar....

p/s: hopefully i am given another chances to watch others theater.. i fall in love with it.. tq

aku semakin mengerti...

no other words accept for
ALHAMDULILLAH..

HE MAKES ME REALIZE MY MISTAKES.. I REALIZE HOW FAR AM I GOING TO.. I SHOULD NOT DO THAT.

YA ALLAH, WHAT HAVE I DONE..
I HAVE GIVEN CHANCES TO FEEL THE FEELINGS.. I HAVE BEEN GIVEN CHANCES TO FEEL HUMAN 'S LOVE.. YOU HAVE GIVEN ME THOSE THINGS TO MAKE ME THINK ABOUT IT..

YA ALLAH, THANKS A LOT COZ GIVING EVERYTHING
YOU GIVE IT FOR A WHILE AND TAKE IT BACK BECAUSE YOU ALREADY KNOW THE BEST FOR ME AND MY LIFE..

I NEVER AND EVER REGRET FOR THE THINGS HAPPEN TO ME.. I ACCEPT IT.. I'LL MAKE IT AS MY OWN EXPERIENCE AND OF COURSE CAN BE USE AS MY REMINDER.."DON'T EASY MAKE A DECISION AND DONT SIMPLY ACCEPT MAN'S LOVE..."

WHAT I NEED NOW IS...YOUR LOVE AND MY FAMILY AND FRIEND..
I ALREADY HAVE YOU AND THEM..
SO CLOSE MY HEART UNTIL SOMEONE WHO DESERVES FOR IT COMES INTO IT...



P/S: mybe i'm just talk nonsene..something keep playing in mind..

forever and always....

• Forever & Always by Taylor Swift

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kekasih kita sedang cemburu

25th March 2010
every friday morning we'll have a talk/takzirah.. the latest tazkirah that i remebered is about KEKASIH KITA SEDANG CEMBURU....but who is our LOVER?? WHO? WHO? WHO? is the lover is the guy who 'love' you? or is the lover is always SMS with you or phone call with you? think..think..think...we should know who is our lover.. i can hear a lot of answers when Kak Sara asked this.

Kekasih=ALLAH swt..

why she said kekasih kita sedang cemburu?
because,
HE jealous when we love someone else more than we love HIM..
HE jealous when we think about some one else more than we think about HIM..
HE jealous when we keep calling some else name but seldom say and call HIS name..
HE jealous when we settle up other worlds than follow HIS rules and regulation in ISLAM

we as the followers should think about this. why we trying hard to get man's love than work hard to get Allah's love. HE loves us and that is why HE never neglected us. HE always be with us whenever we need HIM.

LET'S US THINK ABOUT THIS..
HOPEFULLY, I get his love first before i find man's love..

mom's birthday celebration

25th March 2011(friday)

today is my mom's 52th birthday. i wanna go back but have class to be attended. i did not plan to go back .. so i just called my mom n wish her "SELAMAT HARI LAHIR MAK".. i pray for her happiness and i told her that i love her.. i cant hug and kiss her. just wish on phone call.

but then, i planned to go back. i want to give her a surprise. i called my sist and asked her favor. after class that afternoon, i asked abg fadil to fetch me here and straight bought a birthday cake.. we went to Italy Bakery and bought Cuppucino chocolate cake..



then, i got a plan to bring her to Malacca River Cruise. i told abg fadil and he agreed with my idea. great..

my parents were very surprise as they saw me. why?? of course laa bcoz i told them that i am might not be home this weekend as my schedule is very pack. but for my mom, i tended to be there to celebrate her birthday.

alhamdulillah, i got a chance to hug and kiss my mom on her birthday.. then i told my sist about my plan to bring my mom and ayah to MRC that night. she also agreed.

b4 dinner i asked my mom to change her cloth. mom just followed me. mom did not know about our plan yet. we had our dinner early. after dinner my sist and i started change and asked mom too.. we were going out but mom just followed us.

she smiled at us when we arrived at MCR.


this is for her birthday. i love you mom..we love you so much..







to my mom, i love you and i really hope that i will be given opportunity to give you happiness in life. for you ayah, i love you too....we love both of you..

lots of pictures can be seen here:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?id=100001065823919&aid=42625

credit to abg fadil, akak, ayah and of course myself for this plan.. WE LOVE SURPRISE, right???

one more time...

please go away.. please get off from my life..and dont ever try to come back..
i dont want to keep your eyes. i'm tired of it..
i am the one who trying hard to get the best.. how bout you?
sorry to say.. once again.. I AM TIRED ENOUGH!!!
TQ..

K.A.M.I dan M.U.Z.I.UM

K.A.M.I plan nak melawat muzium yg sgt lah bnyk ni since b4 cuti MIDSEM.. ni semua gara-gara kononnya tak tau nak jalan mana plus konon tak banyak keje.. haha.. diz idea came from cik fashadila coz dia dah melawat dulu semua muzium ni..

suppose K.A.M.I gi ari jumaat.. nak tau tak kenapa??? sebab one of us cakap time ni laa boleh tgk para lelaki yang tak pegi solat jumaat.. hurmmm.. not bad jugak tu.. so time tu konfem we all tak main mata ngan mereka2 ni coz tak menjamin masa depan K.A.M.I...

tapi cancel coz sebab2 yg munasabah.. so K.A.M.I gi ari Sabtu..

K.A.M.I kuar 5 orang bersama WAJA cik Fatin.. fa bella dila syuk and fatin...

4 of us orang melaka and one from johor..

honestly aku lum penah pegi semua muzium yg K.A.M.I pegi.

okay, rasa MALU...seriously mcm melancong dlm negeri sendiri...hahaha..I DONT CARE..

if i'm not mistaken, K.A.M.I pegi 5 muzium..

1st memorial kemerdekaan F.O.C

2nd muzium dunia melayu dunia islam RM5.00 for student entrance

3rd muzium setem RM0.50 for student entrance

4th muzium kat bangunan merah(Stadhuys)sorry tak ingat nama.. RM0.50 for student entrance

5th muzium seni bina F.O.C

mcm2 info yg aku dpt time melawat semua tempat ni and sgt sesuai utk ktorg yg belajar Sociology coz one of the museum related to our topic-CULTURE... so for those yg love culture and eager to know datang la kat muzium dlm Stadhuys... mmg best..

FA and ME

RM 5.00 PER entrence..worthy

seronok jln bersama mereka.. mmg lenguh2 kaki tp who cares.. then K.A.M.I singgah sebentar kat kedai cendol.. hurmmm... yummy..best minum cendol time panas mcm tu...

kedai cendol + abc

opss..nak habis baru ingat nak snap pic.. best sey.

then terasa lapar and plus dah lunch hour, so K.A.M.I pun cari port utk lunch...hurmm..nak mkn ape ye...mcm2 nk mkn last2 K.A.M.I mkn kat NASI BERIANI BUKIT BARU..i'm not very satisfied with the food.. rasa biase2 je.. and better prefer something else.. tp takpe rezeki allah.. so makan je laa.. first and last kot dtg makan kat sini..

okay....last but not least...

I LOVE MALACCA VERY MUCH..IT WAS AWESOME!!!